Guest guest Posted August 4, 2003 Report Share Posted August 4, 2003 Part VI Devi Bhava: Mood of the Goddess. There was a different sort of energy among the retreat-goers that night. For one thing, there were an additional three thousand people on campus to see Amma. I think another contributing factor was we all expected to be awake for many more hours. Still not feeling the total connection to Amma that others did, I wasn't sure I'd be able to stay awake until the end. Then I saw Her, Amma in Devi Bhava giving darshan with thousands of people in the room. The air was electric and I felt giddy walking around. She began at 10PM and the sight was amazing. There is a subtle but important difference when Amma is in Devi Bhava. I was drawn to her like a magnet. I alternated from watching from a distance to working my way onto the stage and back again. I saw her from all sides and could scarcely take my eyes off her. All night the music swelled and dipped as the crowd moved and swayed. I decided to ask for a mantra and grew more and more excited as my number approached. Finally, around 3:30AM the flip cards turned over and my number was up! I wore my contacts so I could see Amma's face the entire time. I was so happy, finally felt like I was going to see my Mother. When I got up there Amma smiled proudly at me and gathered me to her. I was so happy, nearly laughing with joy as I breathed in her deep rose scent. So different from my first darshan only two nights ago! When she held me before her again, I said, "Amma, mantra?" And she nodded and directed me to an attendant who showed me where I needed to go to begin the process. I was lucky enough to get my mantra at the same time as the young Buddhist monk who everyone saw walking around all weekend. When he and I were in the small group after receiving our mantras, we kept catching each other's eyes. He was so happy he kept giggling and covering his mouth. I couldn't stop smiling. So much joy I have never known as the moments after receiving my initiating mantra from Amma. The monk was very helpful in explaining the power and purpose of a mantra and if he's reading this I want to thank him. After that I was in for the long-haul. If I got too tired, I'd go outside and lay on the grass for a while watching people walk by, listening to the chatter, the drums and the music from inside. I felt so peaceful and happy. I never wanted this temporary community to end. Twenty minutes of lying flat was enough to keep me energetic for another few hours so I'd go back in and continue floating around Amma. Around 4:30 the music and energy in the hall reached an amazing crescendo, frantic and excited, and many people were dancing ecstatically all around the hall. It was beautiful! The only thing remaining was for Amma to conclude Devi Bhava, and that is the moment that changed my life forever. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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