Guest guest Posted August 30, 2003 Report Share Posted August 30, 2003 Ah such lovely discussions I find here. Regarding Amma's status as an Avitar or Guru or One Heck Of A Woman in this world, I too must say that there was no doubt from the first moment I met Amma that she was the greatest person I had ever seen - and when I say greatest I mean in the deepest way, deep in my heart and my "soul" and my cells and my atoms and my spirit I know that Amma is love... I find no need to analyze my response to Amma or to pick apart the peace I feel knowing her love and learning her teachings. What a wonderful dilemma I have - the rest of my life I must learn how to be more loving and selfless. What a wonderful fate has befallen me. I had a huge disappointment in the Catholic religion (which I was born into) and spent much of my life with no spiritual path (that I was aware of). I dabbled in Native American teachings and greatly appreciate their "red road"...I knew that something/someone was guiding my life through the chaos and drama I was taught to live in because I live through it and survived. I asked for help after 50 years of living in chaos and dread, and 3 years later Amma appeared in my life. Now I happily surrender to Amma each morning when I say "Amma, thy will not mine be done"...I am Amma's girl, and I am happy. That is enough for me. I can only comprehend so much of these philosophy discussions and nit-picking dialogs. I just know what I know what I know... And every day Amma teaches me more. Thanks to all who speak here. Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, Supriti Omenka Nnadi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 30, 2003 Report Share Posted August 30, 2003 Thank you for your post, Supriti. You wrote: "What a wonderful dilemma I have - the rest of my life I must learn how to be more loving and selfless. What a wonderful fate has befallen me." All I can add is: DITTO...DITTO......DITTO...DITTO. In Amma, Sara > Now I happily surrender to Amma each morning when I say "Amma, thy will not mine be done"...I am Amma's girl, and I am happy. That is enough for me. > > I can only comprehend so much of these philosophy discussions and nit-picking dialogs. I just know what I know what I know... > > And every day Amma teaches me more. Thanks to all who speak here. > > Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, > > Supriti Omenka Nnadi > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 31, 2003 Report Share Posted August 31, 2003 Hello to All, I suddenly felt inspired to respond, and hope I do not offend anyone. It's just another example of a path that finally, blessedly, crossed with Mother's, and seems relevant to the discussions of late: I, too, had an intense and profound experience on every level when I met Mother. My first darshan still haunts me, 7 years later! Like some, though, I still questioned why Mother was in my life after meeting Her, despite the profound experience. My own theory is that I was so torn up, so full of wounds, that my healing is needing to take longer. Let's just say there wasn't any instant transformation or immediate cessation to my questions. : ) Mother has said that it is a Mystery why souls are drawn to certain Avatars and Masters, and cannot be comprehended by the human mind. Like Supriti, I was also born into a family that espoused Catholicism. Like Surpriti, I suffered some huge disappointments within that context. I was so sad growing up, constantly asking God why I didn't have a teacher to help me to understand my religion, my family, myself, and life. I gradually increased to being hopping mad and quite rebellious and bitter. My bitterness took it's major hostage as MEN IN GENERAL. I suddenly realized this with some interest, sometime ago, and expect the healing to be slow in this regard. But, I saw the Catholic church as run by men, my parish was run by men, the men were corrupt and hurting just about everyone I knew in my parish. It's sad, but true, and the conclusion rested, and included Jesus. Intellectually, I also know that God is only good, people have egos, and they are corrupt. But, my mushy mind cast a nasty net into the sea of mankind, and singled out men--all, but my dad. : ) Then, when my dad died suddenly, it was apparently the last straw I needed to try to seriously find answers to my life's dilemma without a teacher. After years of wrong-thinking, thinking God was some sort of male force somewhere, I dared to think of God as a woman, and DEMANDED that God show me the feminine face of God, OR ELSE...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Within a year of that demand, and some self-guided reading on the topic of feminine spirituality, I met Mother. Since meeting Mother, I have experienced quite alot of personal healing, and much of it centers on the realm of spirituality, which enabled me to understand my roots in Catholicism. I am grateful to no longer feel alienated from my past, but able to embrace it, and to appreciate it through the loving and perfect example of Mother's life and teachings. Mother has said that She is ONE with Jesus, meaning She is one with God and all who have merged with God. And Mother has said that Jesus' message was service to humanity, and sacrifice. I wish my life had been happier, but, God does whatever is necessary to teach us. I was shown how badly things go when we only serve ourselves, not each other, and my weak mind labelled men and Catholics as corrupt because of what I saw and experienced. I am grateful for Mother's example to correct and soothe my wounded mind. She helped to bring about a leap in my healing in this way: On my altar is a picture of Mother in meditation, and a picture of Mother's feet with kumkum dots. After praying the LS, I tearfully confided in Mother how ashamed I always felt because Jesus never answered any of my prayers and I felt so unworthy of Her love, too. I asked Her Why Jesus never answered any of my prayers, and bravely waited for the answer.... The picture of Her feet became 3-D, and the kumkum dots enlarged and enlarged to include everything and myself, and I understood that Mother was telling me that She IS Jesus, has been with me the whole time, but I just had to wait for Her to come in the form of Ammachi to answer my prayers. For those of you not familiar... Jesus was crucified, and Mother's kumkum dots reminded me of Jesus' feet with the nail holes. The healing of my past and my personal wounds has been slow and painful as well as joyful with Mother as my Teacher, so long awaited! But, I am very grateful and my prayer continues to be that I will get the strength necessary to bow down in surrender to God's mysterious love and healing. Please, don't anyone be offended. I refer only to the form that my wounds took, and pray for continued healing. Thanks for everyone's sharings on this list. In God's Mysterious Love, karen >Omenka Supriti Nnadi <oomenka >Ammachi >Ammachi > Amma is Love >Sat, 30 Aug 2003 09:26:37 -0700 (PDT) > > >Ah such lovely discussions I find here. Regarding Amma's status as an >Avitar or Guru or One Heck Of A Woman in this world, I too must say that >there was no doubt from the first moment I met Amma that she was the >greatest person I had ever seen - and when I say greatest I mean in the >deepest way, deep in my heart and my "soul" and my cells and my atoms and >my spirit I know that Amma is love... > >I find no need to analyze my response to Amma or to pick apart the peace I >feel knowing her love and learning her teachings. What a wonderful dilemma >I have - the rest of my life I must learn how to be more loving and >selfless. What a wonderful fate has befallen me. > >I had a huge disappointment in the Catholic religion (which I was born >into) and spent much of my life with no spiritual path (that I was aware >of). I dabbled in Native American teachings and greatly appreciate their >"red road"...I knew that something/someone was guiding my life through the >chaos and drama I was taught to live in because I live through it and >survived. I asked for help after 50 years of living in chaos and dread, >and 3 years later Amma appeared in my life. > >Now I happily surrender to Amma each morning when I say "Amma, thy will not >mine be done"...I am Amma's girl, and I am happy. That is enough for me. > >I can only comprehend so much of these philosophy discussions and >nit-picking dialogs. I just know what I know what I know... > >And every day Amma teaches me more. Thanks to all who speak here. > > > > > > > > > > >Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, > >Supriti Omenka Nnadi > > > > > > > _______________ Get MSN 8 and help protect your children with advanced parental controls. http://join.msn.com/?page=features/parental Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 31, 2003 Report Share Posted August 31, 2003 Karen, No offense taken whatsoever. A beautiful story, beautifully told. Like others here, I was raised Catholic. After embarking on a meandering spiritual search I eventually entered the initiatory path of Islamic Sufism, which eventually healed and overpowered my previous problems with Catholicism. (If one can overcome the fear of Islam and find within it the Path of Love, one can overcome the fear of Catholicism.) Through a friend I was introduced to Amma this summer. The healing journey continues and deepens. I wanted you to know that your story touched me deeply. In tears, Ron (Khalid Hussain) - "karen koerber" <kerbie66 <Ammachi> Sunday, August 31, 2003 4:34 PM Re: Amma is Love > Hello to All, > I suddenly felt inspired to respond, and hope I do not offend anyone. It's > just another example of a path that finally, blessedly, crossed with > Mother's, and seems relevant to the discussions of late: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 31, 2003 Report Share Posted August 31, 2003 - Khalid Hussain Ammachi Sunday, August 31, 2003 4:53 PM Re: Amma is Love Karen, Like Ron, I found your story inspirational and beautiful -nothing whatsoever offensive in any manner. And I do understand the healing that can follow years of difficulties; my first marriage ended abruptly, and against my will, after twenty-five years and God and I went to war over it. How could He allow a family like ours to be destroyed? What purpose could that ever serve? Oddly, tho, it did-and I ended up meeting and marrying a man who knows what love is and must be AND because of this husband's love I have the freedom to go to Amma (I would not have even considered following my heart in this way before). The healing that has occured since I met Amma -actually since I first decided I HAD to meet her- has been remarkable and unpredictable. My concern over abandoning Christianity, altho it wasn't working for me any more, has dissipated; like has been mentioned, Amma's blessing on all paths has made it clear that I may choose the right path for me and, like you, I have done so. This group has added tremendously to my life and I am grateful to all of you, too. At Mother's feet, Dixie (Snehalata) Karen, No offense taken whatsoever. A beautiful story, beautifully told. Like others here, I was raised Catholic. After embarking on a meandering spiritual search I eventually entered the initiatory path of Islamic Sufism, which eventually healed and overpowered my previous problems with Catholicism. (If one can overcome the fear of Islam and find within it the Path of Love, one can overcome the fear of Catholicism.) Through a friend I was introduced to Amma this summer. The healing journey continues and deepens. I wanted you to know that your story touched me deeply. In tears, Ron (Khalid Hussain) - "karen koerber" <kerbie66 <Ammachi> Sunday, August 31, 2003 4:34 PM Re: Amma is Love > Hello to All, > I suddenly felt inspired to respond, and hope I do not offend anyone. It's > just another example of a path that finally, blessedly, crossed with > Mother's, and seems relevant to the discussions of late: > Sponsor Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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