Chaos breeds shakti

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Dear brothers and sisters,

 

My husband and I were set to pick up Kenna aunty from the airport

yesterday. I'd taken the night off from my second job, my husband

came with me to work and spent the entire day at the library so he

could come with me, we got a car wash, had a cool bottle of water

ready, and made sure that there was enough free space for her to put

her luggage in the car.

 

On the way to the airport, I realized that I'd forgotten to get

directions to a restaurant inbetween the airport and the ashram.

Ooops. So, I frantically called 411, trying to find someplace. Hubby

and I exchanged a few "words", because he said, "Wouldn't a Google

search have prevented all this?!" to which I answered, "I can't be

perfect all of the time. Sometimes I forget things too!" However, we

did not have a full-blown argument, which I was very happy about.

 

We got down to the airport (which is about an hour drive from home)

at about 5:05; we were scheduled to pick up Kenna at 5:15. Just then,

my phone rang and it was Kenna herself. She was stuck in Chicago due

to bad weather, and it wasn't likely that she was going to make the

next flight out either. More than likely, she said, she'd be on the

later flight, which would put her into town at 10pm! I felt so bad

for her, being stuck in Chicago. She said that she would call me

later to keep me updated, and that we shouldn't worry about picking

her up, as she didn't want to keep us awake late into the night (I

leave for work at about 6:15 in the morning). She is very sweet, and

I felt bad for her situation.

 

However, as soon as I hung up the phone, I could do nothing but

giggle aloud. I had a HUGE grin on my face, and thought to

myself, "This is just like Amma!" I remembered Kenna telling me once

that chaos is shakti, and I surely felt the chaos around me at that

moment! However, I felt somehow peaceful inside, like this happened

to teach me a lesson.

 

No matter how much I prepare the little details, things are still out

of my control. I can print out all sorts of Mapquest maps, buy water,

have a car wash, arrange for my husband to be with me, clean out the

car...but none of it matters. It's all just this grand play, and we

have no control over the outcome. We can only do what we can do with

love and devotion.

 

I giggled for a good ten minutes, and my husband looked at me like I

was a crazy person. He said, "Honey, are you okay? Are you upset?" He

was right to ask; normally I would have been very upset. I told him

that I was not upset...quite the opposite really. I was so peaceful

inside! He then commented that I must be doing something right. I

guess my spiritual practice is progressing.

 

One step at a time.

 

With love and much anticipation,

At Amma's feet,

Erica