Guest guest Posted May 5, 2004 Report Share Posted May 5, 2004 You are so sweet to have taken time for this. I'm very touched by the poem - I've read a bit of Mary Oliver. I'm feeling better now, more myself again, more focused. But yes, for a couple of weeks I totally lost my connection, lost sight of what's important. Tracy was doing so well, clean for four months, then in a moment of weakness called her dealer and injected herself with an unknowningly strong strain of heroin. She must've died within minutes. She didn't look like a drug user. She looked healthy, fleshy, had vibrant skin and eyes. She smiled a lot (when she was clean). My friend, her father, found her face-down in their bathroom the next morning, long dead. It was terrible! Maybe you saw it mentioned in the Chronicle that week...? She was a musician. Anyway, yes, very hard to take. However, it's moved past my limbs, past my flesh and brain, and has settled into a quiet place in my heart next to other tragedies never forgotten but softly obedient to my need to survive. See... your prayer inspired me. Thank you, Gabriela --- Linda Puckett <lkpuckett143 wrote: > Dear Gabriela, > > It is May 5th, and I am only now reading your post > from April 22nd. I feel a bit guilty, as I have been > e-mailing you with questions about satsang dates and > garage sales and such. > > Grieving a death -- any kind of death -- is not a > small thing. My heart goes out to you... > > Just now I prayed to Amma, and asked Her to show me > a > poem that I could share with you, a poem that might > bring you a blessing. The book opened to this poem > by > Mary Oliver, called "The Wren from Carolina." I pass > it along with much love -- > Amala > ******************************************** > > Just now the wren from Carolina buzzed > through the neighbor's hedge > a line of grace notes I couldn't even write down > much less sing. > > Now he lifts his chestnut colored throat > and delivers such a cantering praise -- > for what? > For the early morning, the taste of the spider, > > for his small cup of life > that he drinks from every day, knowing it will > refill. > All things are inventions of holiness. > Some more rascally than others. > > I'm on that list too, > though I don't know exactly where. > But, every morning, there's my own cup of gladness, > and there's that wren in the hedge, above me, with > his > > blazing song. > > ************************************************** Win a $20,000 Career Makeover at HotJobs http://hotjobs.sweepstakes./careermakeover Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 5, 2004 Report Share Posted May 5, 2004 Namah Shivaya - I'm sorry; I didn't mean for this to go to the whole group! Embarrassed, Gabriela --- Gabriela Rios <gabriela1027 wrote: > You are so sweet to have taken time for this. I'm > very touched by the poem - I've read a bit of Mary > Oliver. I'm feeling better now, more myself again, > more focused. > > But yes, for a couple of weeks I totally lost my > connection, lost sight of what's important. Tracy > was > doing so well, clean for four months, then in a > moment > of weakness called her dealer and injected herself > with an unknowningly strong strain of heroin. She > must've died within minutes. She didn't look like a > drug user. She looked healthy, fleshy, had vibrant > skin and eyes. She smiled a lot (when she was > clean). > > > My friend, her father, found her face-down in their > bathroom the next morning, long dead. It was > terrible! > Maybe you saw it mentioned in the Chronicle that > week...? She was a musician. Anyway, yes, very hard > to take. > > However, it's moved past my limbs, > past my flesh and brain, > and has settled into a quiet place in my heart > next to other tragedies > never forgotten but softly obedient > to my need to survive. > > See... your prayer inspired me. > Thank you, > Gabriela > > --- Linda Puckett <lkpuckett143 wrote: > > Dear Gabriela, > > > > It is May 5th, and I am only now reading your post > > from April 22nd. I feel a bit guilty, as I have > been > > e-mailing you with questions about satsang dates > and > > garage sales and such. > > > > Grieving a death -- any kind of death -- is not a > > small thing. My heart goes out to you... > > > > Just now I prayed to Amma, and asked Her to show > me > > a > > poem that I could share with you, a poem that > might > > bring you a blessing. The book opened to this poem > > by > > Mary Oliver, called "The Wren from Carolina." I > pass > > it along with much love -- > > Amala > > ******************************************** > > > > Just now the wren from Carolina buzzed > > through the neighbor's hedge > > a line of grace notes I couldn't even write down > > much less sing. > > > > Now he lifts his chestnut colored throat > > and delivers such a cantering praise -- > > for what? > > For the early morning, the taste of the spider, > > > > for his small cup of life > > that he drinks from every day, knowing it will > > refill. > > All things are inventions of holiness. > > Some more rascally than others. > > > > I'm on that list too, > > though I don't know exactly where. > > But, every morning, there's my own cup of > gladness, > > and there's that wren in the hedge, above me, with > > his > > > > blazing song. > > > > ************************************************** > > > Win a $20,000 Career Makeover at HotJobs > http://hotjobs.sweepstakes./careermakeover > Win a $20,000 Career Makeover at HotJobs http://hotjobs.sweepstakes./careermakeover Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 5, 2004 Report Share Posted May 5, 2004 Oh, Gabriela... Don't be embarrassed. I'm so sorry about your friend's daughter. My stepson's mother died at 32 of a heroin-cocaine overdose after years of on-again off-again use. It was so, SO shocking to her family and my husband's family... such a tragedy. Much love, Prashanti Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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