To Linda: Jhilam. Jhilam

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Ammachi, nierika@a... wrote:

"Also, I love the bhajan "Jilum,

> jilum." Do you know which tape it is on?"

 

Jai Amma Kali, sweetie!

"Jhilam, Jhilam" can be found on 1 CD, and 2 tapes:

"Best of World Tour CD", "1994 World Tour Part 2" tape,

and "Amritanjali Vol. 35"

 

Seeing Ammachi tomorrow!

Love and Bliss,

Your sister always,

muktimaa

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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> Arun Raj wrote:

>

> ...several years later... it was vacation time at college..

and...our gang

> of young devotees...fled to Amritapuri...but, for me this vacation

was

> slightly different from the earlier ones, bcoz... i just dont know

what got into me,

> all i could think of was about performing Kali sadhana (special

practices

> done after midnight to appease Kali)...one morning during the stay

at Amma's

> Ashram,...i suddenly stood still, i kind of lost my senses...but,

within a few

> moments, forgot the world around me, even the body no longer seem

to be

> there. all i could feel was some strong messages within... one of

which was to

> perform Kali Sadhana & and that i had been with Amma in my

previous births...

>

> the conversation with Swamiji that night left a deep impression in

my

> heart.. something had changed within.. i was determined.. now, i

just had to see

> Her.. my Divine Mother, Kali. all i could think of was meeting Her

in

> person....the next saturday, i was attending the weekly bhajans at

the local ashram

> branch. the final bhajan was "jhilam jhilam..." which was about Ma

Kali. i was

> seated at the back end of the hall, with no one near me. it was

about the

> middle of the song when, the lights went out. the speakers were

running on

> battery. i felt an intense longing to see Amma.. with eyes closed,

i called Her

> with all my heart. at one point, i felt a growing presense before

me.. it was

> so strong, it forced me to come out of the state of absorption i

was in &

> opened my eyes..... i could not see any of the devotees in front..

just effulgent

> light ....then 2 huge bare legs emerged from it a few meters ahead

of me...

> the figure loomed high.. it was tall, maybe around 30 feet or

more, i had to

> strain my head as i looked up... was simply petrified when i saw

it..... it

> was THE FORM... a dark female form with disheavelled hair... bones

& skulls

> hanging down.. i cannot describe how dreadful it looked.. wished i

could run

> away.. but my body would'nt budge... it felt like a immoveable

corpse...the

> body would'nt respond. at the same time, felt an electric shock

pass thought my

> whole system... like a thunderbolt had struck me. as i watched

Her... She

> was moving... the tongue was hanging down from Her mouth... it was

so awsome, i

> had no choice but to surrender.... soon my mind accepted the

Form.. knew it

> was Amma.. from Her eyes, just knew it was Her. soon the fear

boiled down &

> was replaced with love... Her intense compassion overwhelmed me. i

too felt

> intense love develop towards Her. then, saw Swamiji near Her left

leg... who

> looked very small in front of Her... saw him get absorbed into Her

form. i

> could feel my nervous system overflowing with energy.. as if

blocked pipes all

> got open suddenly & was flowing with light...even today, that

massive Form

> brings chills all over. but, m no longer frightened, bcoz m in

love with Her.

>

> later came to know more about the sounds i used to hear during the

> meditation sessions as a kid... that which sounded like a growl

was Her laugher &

> "hum" was the mantra syllable Kali utters.. when She awakens the

kundalini.

>

>

>

> Dear Arun ~ for the sake of the stories I am collected, I copied

your entire

> post, but for the sake of brevity in responding here, I left some

out. All I

> can say is Wow! What an incredible experience you had ... and you

had been

> getting prepared for it for years by hearing the sounds during

meditation, even

> though you did not know what they were. One thing I wonder is what

is the 30

> feet high Kali about? Why not 20 feet, or 50? But everyone who has

written

> of seeing this enlarged version of Kali Ma always says 30 feet. It

would be

> very interesting to know what this is about. Also, I love the

bhajan "Jilum,

> jilum." Do you know which tape it is on?

>

> Thank you so much for sharing this incredible, woundrous story with

us. I am

> overwhelmed.

> Jai Kali Amma ~ Linda

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