to menoj on coming to mother

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manoj wrote:

 

Mine was not a case of "instantly", it was a case of 13 years of

skeptical (esentially skeptical about the Devi Bhava and my own

adolescent ideas of why bhajans and pujas were uncool),

patient "contemplation" till she whacked it into my head of her

authencity and relevance (to me). Yet, I have no complaints. I am

convinced that Amma is my guru

 

 

Dear manoj,

 

I am so glad you shared this. We all come (fall in love with/ accept as our

guru) to Amma in different ways, for different reasons, in different amounts

of time. My story is somewhat like yours. I got kind of dragged to see Amma

by my sister. For several years, my sense of Amma was that She was some way to

be close to my sister (now there's a whole other story). Despite this, I had

some very unique experiences around Amma, which, if I'd been paying

attention, would have told me all I needed to know ~ that I am Amma's baby.

 

And I am telling the truth when I say that every single time I have written

it here, which seems a lot to me, I have meant it with my whole heart. That,

for this child, I "came" to Amma, after not seeing Her for 6 years and not

being able to see Her this year, to a great extent during this year's tour.

Amma's Love reached back to me in so many ways, through things people did for me

or sent to me ~ I never felt more connected to Amma in my life.

 

So, for me, it has been through Amma's Love, expressed by this digest, this

unique satsang, that has finally penetrated my thick skull. I am sitting here

listening, while I write, to one of the Amma bhajan sites. Today when I went

to get my hair done, all the while, I chanted (inwardly of course) my Amma

mantra. (At one point several years ago, I thought I had forgotten part of it

and it was arranged for Swami Dayamrita to call me, to make sure I had it

correct and remind me of the meaning ~ that was a unique experience). Does this

make me anything different? I'm not winning points; it is all happening

spontaneously, not because I try to force it, but because as was said in "River

of

Love," (paraphrased): you just naturally want to do these things. It is like

a river where a dam had been built, and suddenly the dam is gone.

 

Amma's Love is flowing into my life because my brothers and sisters here

have helped to take away the dam. Jai Ma ~ Linda