An inner conversation with Sai

[Guest guest]

I knew it was a mistake, yet I committed. I knew I should have

controlled my emotions, still I let them loose. I did it knowingly.

 

And then Swami turned to me with a frown, "I hate you! I can never

forgive you!! Take the punishment!"

 

I fell on His Feet, "God! This is unbecoming of You! You are supposed

to have limitless compassion. How can You deny me forgiveness? You

know how much I love You in the deepest cores of my heart. Don't You?"

 

Swami smiled, "My dear son! I know. And Yes, My Love is unbounded and

I never deny You my Grace."

 

He added, "Pass this forgiveness that I give you to all those who hurt

you. Though you committed a mistake knowingly, I know the true

yearning of your heart, for you are nothing but a spec of Me. Now, you

understand all those who harm you are also specs of the same Atma

which is in you. Like what you want Me to be to you, you be to

others."

[Guest guest]

Hello Sai Sandesh

It is difficult for me to understand why you felt so guilty that you felt

love for another person. I think that more you open your heart, more persons

will enter into your heart and Baba suggests that we need to be able to love

everybody at the end . God is all and to love God is to love all but we

need to start by loving one person. And if we feel guilty about loving, we

will be afraid to love and we will delude ourselves that we love Baba only

but this won t be true. We need to face God in another person as well and

to accept and not supress the feelings which God in another persons

mirrors back to us. And this processus has nothing to do with attachement

to another person if we are seeing nothing else but God in that person.

What do you think about it ?

greetings

Barbara

 

 

 

>Sai Sandesh <saisandesh

>[saibabanews] An inner conversation with Sai

>Sun, 10 Apr 2005 20:00:18 +0300

[Guest guest]

Sairam Barbara

 

I agree completely with what you said. When love is devoid of

attachment, it is pure and desirable. The inner conversation that I

mentioned has nothing to do with that kind of a situation.

 

In my email, I mentioned about "emotions". But those are not just

emotions of attachment. I meant any kind of emotion like anger,

frustration, fear etc. which disturbs the peace of mind.

 

To give you the precise situation when I wrote this....It was a day

when one of my room-mates has returned home drunken and was creating a

lot of noise. I was trying to sleep but could not. I could remain

patient for an hour and then when I could not bear it anymore, I got

very angry and shouted at him.

 

The mistake that I saw myself committing here was to "really" feel

angry with the person. I should have just "feigned" (pretended) the

anger but should not have really felt it inside....just like our Swami

does over His erring students at Prasanthi.

 

In repentance of this outburst, I was talking to Swami in prayer and

this was that conversation...

 

Have a Sai-filled day!

JAI SAIRAM

Pardha

 

 

 

On Apr 11, 2005 9:26 PM, barbara dowgiallo <bdowgiallo wrote:

>

> Hello Sai Sandesh..........

[Guest guest]

Sometimes a well minded person need to do some disciplinary actions to take

charge of situation for the common good. Try to look at the positive aspect of

life. You did that to prevent disturbing the neighbour's sleep also. If you did

not raise your voice, the intoxicated person would not have aroused to sense

what he was doing.

Then with remorse and heart felt regrets for your reaction, look at what you can

strategically do to help your room mate!!

Understand the reason why he needed to get intoxicated for the momentary pleasure.

Research shows that people who had grown up in violence and chaos, peopel who

have grown up when the temperament and temper did not have opportunities to

have been modulated, are the ones who resort to violence, drugs and alcohol

abuse to get pleasure. They do not understand that it will not last but few

moments.

People who are in Swami's fold who can practice the concepts of "EDUCARE" can

look at things with compassion and mentor these people to build their inner

strengths through love and forgiveness and reach out to the inner core of an

individual. If this fails you can avoid this person totally. You have a choice

to make. A person could commit a criminal act that makes him a criminal, but at

birth he was not a criminal. The acts will continue, till somebody stops them.

Tehn take the person and turn him around to reflect upon and tap the inner core

through mentoring to redirect the thoughts into posiitve thinking. If your room

mate is still talking to you, explore and try to reach his heart by opening the

gates of communication and have him tap the hidden memories of trauma, self

rejection, scarred heart and mind. The gates of communication will open the

trap door to those hidden secrets of his/her early childhood, that is repeated

as a weakness.

My 29 years of experience in taking care of the victims of emotional abuse,

broken hearts and self rejected little souls taught me to use Swami's love in

understanding and enduring other's anger , while let the angry be guided to

self reflect to see what they have done. That is why I feel that ADD/ED/

BiPolar disorders are not genetic but the result of lost love and the result of

child trauma in the cycle of violence. The victim goes through a lot of

depression in violence and abuse. Society create dthe criminal. We need Sapta

Rishis who guided Ratnaakara to become Vaalmiki, in this Kaliyuga.

Definitely Swami's teachings, and practicing the 5 teaching techniques in daily

life will connect us to the inner core, that is Swami. But The practice leads

to realization. Undercurrent is Universal Love. Research also shows that genes

change with practice and genetic transcription changes have been noted with the

prayers and forced good habits in life.(Baylor Univ)

Any frustration or emotion can be previewed through the reflection process. The

reflection with the undercurrent of Unity in thought, word and action is the

Atmic realization and is attained through FAITH, DEVOTION, CONSTANT

NAAMASMARANA, and SELF CONFIDENCE of ATMIC REALIZATION.

" Self Confidence leads to self lessness, selflessness leads to self sacrifice,

self sacrifice leads to self realization, self realization leads to Love, Love

Leads to Peace, Peace leads to Bliss, Bliss is Union with God" as per Swami's

teachings.

In loving service of Swami's cause

Meena Chintapalli

[Guest guest]

Sairam.

Tks for your nice piece of advice to Pardha.

 

Can u kindly guide me how to deal with corrupt people [i mean people who ask

money indirectly to get our works done] in the working place ? I accept Swami's

sermon to not to accept bribe. But when bribe is not paid to some authority, our

works are not done. Ofcourse, i pray Swami all the time to bring out me of such

situations. I succeed when my prayer is sincere. But i dont succeed all the

time. I fear corrupt people more [as i dont know how to tackle them] than the

animals.

 

Can u please advise.

 

Sairam

papu

-

Meenakshi Chintapalli

saibabanews

Tuesday, April 12, 2005 6:14 PM

[saibabanews] Re: An inner conversation with Sai

Sai Ram Pardha,

[Guest guest]

Sairam sister!

 

Thank you so much for your Divine mail.

 

Yes, the condemnation of others' wrong acts should definitely be

there....but, as Swami says, we should not really eel the hatred

inside.

 

It is a tough job to do this walk-on-sword's-edge, but I am constantly

trying to achieve it...To keep Swami's thought with Love is helping a

lot....

 

I have always loved to become an actor. But never got a chance except

for one drama. But on profound thought, it striked to me that I am

given the chance to act in the great drama of life. This life is the

drama directed by Him and we all are actors. Who will be awarded?

 

The hero? The villain? character artists? Whoever performs well his

own role will be awarded...not because he is hero or villain. In this

regard my Sanskrit teacher's words come to my mind, "Jeevithamoka

chitra naatakamu...raajanu ghanathayu ledhu...bhrithyudanu nyoonathayu

ledhu..."

 

(Life is a mystic drama...In this drama, a king is not greater than a

pauper just because he is a king....)

 

When one's role ends in the drama of life, he dies (makes an exit from

the stage called world). He isn't dead actually. He is eternal. So, we

should only act and act very well. Nothing should affect our state of

mind. Feign grief...feign happiness...feign anger...feign love....

never feel anything truly. Just FEIGN.

 

(Remember Swami's Ramakatha Rasavaahini in which He says.... Seetha

kaanaraaka Raamudu kontha sepu dhukhamu natinchenu....meaning...Having

found Seetha missing, Rama pretended grief for sometime...:-))

 

That is the perfect example for us. Neither Kamal Hassan nor Tom hanks can ever

beat us.... Now...get.... set...start...go.... Lights On...ACTION!

 

:-)

 

Thanks again and have a nice Sai-filled day!

JAI SAIRAM

Pardha

[Guest guest]

I am reminded of Sai's teaching that one should uphold the truth even at the cost of one's life.

 

In such a case it is immaterial whether one's work gets done or not. One should

concentrate on upholding Dharma at all cost ie. even at the cost of one' work

not getting done.

 

Please excuse the sermon

 

suneil trivedi

 

 

SAIpapu <saipapu (AT) (DOT) co.in> wrote:

Sairam.

Tks for your nice piece of advice to Pardha.

 

Can u kindly guide me how to deal with corrupt people.....

[Guest guest]

Always achievement is the most difficult one. then only it can be called as

achievement. If you have to decided to the without corruption

first you must set your mind. If the mindset is really strong we can

can face any situation. we have to fight it come what may. With the

blessings of baba anything is possible.

Sairam.

M.Raamakrishnan.

 

 

 

On Tue, 12 Apr 2005 SAIpapu wrote :

>Sairam.

>Tks for your nice piece of advice to Pardha.

>Can u kindly guide me how to deal with corrupt people..........

[Guest guest]

sairam SAIpapu

 

Survival is not dependent on our efforts. If SAI has brought you to it , HE will

see you through it. If SAI's miracles can save us from ordinary situations and

pitfalls , can HE not save us , especially , whenever we are obeying His

commands to uphold Dharma ? Again , if SAI does not save us , it is only for a

reason that is for our own good , and that can be best explained by HIM alone.

 

In the Gita , Krishna tells Arjuna to keep fighting in order to uphold Dharma.

If he were to die due to it , he would be spiritually rewarded for his efforts ,

but if he were to survive by ignoring his duty , his living would have no

sanctity . One has only the right to do one's duty ,and no rights to the fruits

thereof..We have not come to this world to survive the pitfalls in negotiating

the challenges of fulfilling material goals and duties.. We are here to

overcome our ignorant belief that we are the doers and providers of our

personal needs . We should just simply and dutifully sharpen / perfect our

true tools cum wealth in the form of Sathya , Dharma , Shanti , Prem and

Ahimsa

 

 

I am reminded of another similar situation where , in order to uphold Dharma , a

murderer was asked by Swami to surrender to the police with the promise that he

would not be harmed. This was not an ordinary case of murder. This person had

brutally finished off his entire family and successfully evaded the police for

almost 25 years.

 

This case went upto the supreme court but the murderer was finally pardoned by

the President and his Death sentence was reduced to a life Term.

 

The story did not end here, in fact, this was the begining of a glorious

oppurtunity for the convict to distribute the glory of SAI inside the prisons

of Andhra Pradesh . It is through this convict , SAI entered into the hearts of

the majority inmates of all the jails in Andhra and had them reformed as

devotees

(The facts of the story may not be accurate , but the jist and the moral is very important)

 

My sermons are getting longer , I will take care to keep them short next time.

sairam and regardssuneil trivedi

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SAIpapu <saipapu (AT) (DOT) co.in> wrote:

 

- SAIpapu

saibabanews

Saturday, April 16, 2005 12:10 AM

Re: [saibabanews] Re: An inner conversation with Sai

Sairam and thanks brother.

But how to survive then ?

Sairam

papu

-

Suneil Trivedi

saibabanews

Wednesday, April 13, 2005 12:43 AM

[saibabanews] Re: An inner conversation with Sai

Sairam Dear SAIpapu

 

I am reminded of Sai's teaching that one should uphold the truth even at the cost of one's life.

 

In such a case it is immaterial whether one's work gets done or not. One should

concentrate on upholding Dharma at all cost ie. even at the cost of one' work

not getting done.

 

Please excuse the sermon

 

suneil trivedi

 

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