Glory To Sai!!!

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Sadguru Sainath Maharaj Ki Jai!!!

 

 

Hello Sai devotees. I would like to post my experiences in Shirdi and

with Sai Sat Charitra, i.e. With Saibaba himself.

 

Earlier I was much interested in spiritualism and in transcendence of

the self. I read many books of philosophy and religious scriptures.

Also I would visit many saints and gurus in the search for truth. I

was (and am) very much attracted towards J. Krishnamurti's words. I

was experimenting with the awareness of self. Whatever feeling I use

to get I let it flower and watched them. The general tendency of

human being is trying to run away from the painful experiences. I

would not do that and watch the pain or pleasure flower.

 

Somehow I had respect for Shirdi Sai Baba. Once I tried reading Sai

Sat Charitra, and had put down the book thinking it has stories of

mere miracles and not much about self transcendence. However respect

for Baba was the same. While experimenting with different styles of

meditations which I used to do with awareness on self I had started

feeling subtle vibrations at holy places like temples and pilgrimages.

 

It happened that two of my friends decided to come with me to come to

Shirdi as I had and have this passion to visit pilgrimages. We

reached Shirdi and had darshan at the Samadhi temple. It felt nice,

however I could not feel much vibrations there, there was a feeling

of calmness, serenity and silence.

 

Then we went for the darshan of Gurusthan and then to Masid Mai, We

had darshan of dhuni and then opposite to the dhuni was the stone on

which Baba used to sit. Devotees were placing their heads on the

stone and there was a small queue for the same. Since I did not like

standing in the queue I stood near the stone waiting for the small

queue to get over.

 

As I was standing I felt as if someone was hitting my legs with the

sand. I was wearing jeans and when I looked down there was nothing to

be seen hitting my legs still the feeling was the same and soon the

feeling took over the other parts of the body. My friends had the

same feeling. I had never felt the subtle vibrations so strong, ever.

I was getting overwhelmed. We stood in the queue which was reduced to

about three devotees. I placed both my hands on the stone and then

the head. What great energy I felt. Whole of my vertebrae column was

vibrating and I felt energy rushing between my eyebrows. I stayed

there for about 3 minutes. My friends later told that a devotee

wanted to disturb me as there were devotees waiting in the queue. But

another devotee stopped him by saying Achi Bhakti kar raha hai( he is

doing good devotion). I was like drunken, drunk with the divine

energy of Baba. I sat besides the stone enjoying the bliss and the

energy I was receiving. Both my friends had the same energy. We sat

there and again and again put our heads on the holy stone with the

same effect. The feeling of that great energy the presence was felt

even when we reached hotel and thereafter for few days. This presence

is always felt when ever I go to the holy land Shirdi.

 

While in Shirdi we had bought Sai Baba's pictures, the original one

with the umbrella. After reaching home I was watching the photo and

the energy began to rise within and accumulated between the eyebrows,

I kept watching and felt the presence within and without. What energy

that is, one thing is sure that such energy cannot be created by us,

but can only be received by grace. I feel so thankful to merciful

Baba who showers this grace on unworthy child like me. Yes when ever

I feel this presence I am sure that it cannot be produced by my

efforts.

 

Once I got impatient and thought why I cannot have this energy every

second of the day. I want to be in the same energy always (I still

have this feeling). So I decided that I will sit watching Baba's

picture until I get the self realization. I decided that I will do

nothing else but keep watching Baba's picture. I watched the picture

for about an hour. I thought that I should also read Sai Sat

Charitra, as the energy felt was too much.

 

I casually opened the book and began to read. The chapters 18 and

19th http://www.saibaba.org/satcharitra/sai18_19.html I was reading.

These chapters had the story of the author who had the similar

thought of impatience. Baba had sent him to chit chat with another

devotee Shama. Shama then narrated the story of Mrs. Radhabai

Deshmukh, who had decided and gave up food until Baba gave her a

mantra. Then Baba called her and told her his own story where he had

said that he had served his Guru for long and his guru had asked for

two paise. Those were Shraddha( faith) and Saburi( patience). Here I

was struck with the word patience with great impact and also in the

second last paragraph the words To some devotee, who was practising

Hath-Yoga, He sent word that he should leave off Hath-Yoga practices,

sit quiet and wait (Saburi) struck me. I then left the idea of hath

and decided to remember and watch his picture with Saburi. Here I

remember the Shree Ramakrishna Paramhansha's words that how could one

who think about consciousness get unconscious. So how can one who

watches the picture of consciousness incarnate get unconscious. I

still meditate on Baba's picture and feel this consciousness within

and without. I was also very much against the miracles. There is a

very good book Meher Baba on Sai Baba. In which Meher Baba had

explained that to perform miracles for the awakened ones is not a big

deal( here I am writing as how I have remembered or interpreted not

exactly what is written) they perform miracles so that they can

attract devotees and give them what they want them to give. And also

there is nothing like miracles. Our small mind when it sees something

happening, which it is beyond it's grasp it calls it miracle. And

nothing was and is beyond Baba's grasp. For instance television, or

phone or radio or even switching of the light bulb would be termed as

miracles by the people living in 15th century.

In the similar manner many times when I would feel troubled and

casually read Sai Sat Charitra. I have opened the chapters that would

get my agitated mind and lead it to peace. Other great thing about

this blessed book the invaluable gift to us by Baba is that even

holding it makes me feel the presence.

Once I was in deep emotional pain. I felt that the very roots of my

being were shaken and I choose to get in this painful experiences

rather than avoiding them. The pain was deep and I thought I would go

mad by this painful experience. My body was like paralyzed by the

emotional pain and I was lying on the bed. At that time I put Sai Sat

Charitra on my heart I felt much energy going from the book in my

heart and balanced it. The pain was there but the energy to sustain

was received.

On another instance I had gone to meditate in a group conducted by a

well known guru (here I am not in anyway trying to write against that

or any other Guru). There were about 15,000 people mediating. The

energy went so high that people began to scream and laugh and cry.

The energy within me was also going high and I thought that my brain

will not be able to take such energy. I had taken Sai Sat Charitra

with me. I held it and all the energy was diverted to the place

between the eyes. The energy was well directed by holding this

precious gift by Baba.

I have also bought a shawl from Sai Sansthan Shop in Shirdi and get

touched by Samadhi of Baba. The shawl when placed on my body also

makes me feel this presence.

I had this desire of touching and placing my head on the articles

used by Baba. Last time I was I Shirdi and was visiting a house of a

devotee of Baba, when Baba was still in the human form. The ancestor

of the devotee suddenly stood up and started showing me the articles

used by Baba, the kafni, the satka, the tin pot, the footwear, which

were gifted by Baba to his forefather devotee. Not only this, he

insisted that I hold them for a while. There were devotees in queue

before me and after me, none he asked to hold them but me. Sad Guru

Sainath Maharaj ki Jai.