G S Khaparde Diary Feb. 01, 1912

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1912 February, 1 - Thursday

Shirdi

I was somewhat late in getting up but was able to finish my prayer & in time to

attend the Parmamrit class. The work was finished today & we shall begin to

revise it tomorrow I then went to the Masjid, sat with Sayin Maharaj &

accompanied him out up to Sathe’s Wada. People assembled there as usual

to salute him. I joined their group, saluted him and returning to Bapusaheb

Jog’s quarters, commenced Panchadasi & explained the first ten verses

which really contain the whole work in germinal form. Then I returned to my

quarters wrote a few letters & had them sent off, and went to the Masjid to

attend the mid-day Arti. It passed off all right. Mr Manekachand of Ahmednagar

who has this year taken the degree of LL.B. came there & stayed here the whole

day. We had our meals after we returned from the Arti. I sat reading

Jnyaneshwari edited by Sakhrebwa.

Unfortunately, like the other editions, it does not solve all my difficulties.

Later on Mr Dixit read Ramayan. Mr Sane Mamledar of Shirdi, and Mr Sathé, Dy

Collector & Sub-divisional officer came & sat talking for sometime. We resumed

our Ramayan after they went and in the evening went to the Masjid to meet Sayin

Baba at his evening stroll. After the Wada Arti, we attended the Sheja- Arti,

Bhishma did not have his Bhajan but read Sakharoru’s Prakrit Bagavat & at

night Mr Dixit read Ramayan. Today evening when we assembled at the Masjid

before Sayin Baba started on his stroll, Sayin Saheb told Mr Dixit to give two

hundred Rupees to my wife who was there shampooing the legs of Sayin Saheb.

This order was unaccountable. Has it come to this that I have to be maintained

by charity!!! I prefer death to this. Sayin Saheb I think wishes to curb &

finally destroy my pride. So he is getting me used to poverty and the charity

of others.

G.S.Khaparde

This money was not accepted.

GSK

1912 February 6 Tuesday

Shirdi

I got up & attended the Kakad Arti. Madhavarao Deshpande said that I would get

permission to return home today. So I went with him & Bamangaonkar to Sayin

Saheb about 7.30 A.m. and Sayin Saheb told us to come again in the afternoon.

So We returned & I began the routine of the day. I Upasani & Bapusaheb Jog read

Panchadasi saw Sayin Maharaj go out & attended the mid-day Arti. Brahmanandi Bai

sang an Arti & a few Padas there. Bapusaheb Jog went today to Kopargaon to get

his pension so the arti was finished. After the mid-day meal I & Bamangaonkar

went to the Masjid. Kakasaheb Dixit was there. Sayin Saheb said that we might

go tomorrow. Madhavarao Deshpande also came there. Sayin Saheb said that he had

been considering long & thinking day & night. All were thieves, but we had to

deal with them. He said he prayed to God night & day for their improvement or

removal but God delays and apparently does not approve of the attitude & grant

the prayer. He will wait for a month or two & then see but whether living of

dead he will have what he has been praying for. He will not go to Teli or Wani

& never beg of them. People are not good & devoted. They are unsettled in mind

& so on.

He added that a few friends would gather together talk divine wisdom & sit &

contemplate. He mentioned a few thousand Rupees but I do not remember in what

connection he said it. I then returned & we had the Ramayan Puran by Dixit.

Later on we went to see him come out for his stroll. He was in a pleased mood.

Mr Rajarampant Dixit went away today to Khandawa. Upasani Shastri lost his

wife. The sad news came by letter I, Dixit & Madhavarao went to Upasani,

condoled with him and brought him to the Wada. Fakir Baba appears to have asked

about my going away & Sayin Baba answered that I told him that I would go

tomorrow. When my wife spoke about my going, Sayin Baba said that I did not ask

for permission personally, so he could not say. I happened to go there soon

after & Sayin Baba said that I could not go away without taking five hundred

Rupees from Dada Bhat & two hundred from some one else, & making them all over

to him. At night the Wada Arti was a bit late, as Bapusaheb Jog had to return

from Kopargaon. Brahmanand Bai & Shivanand Shastri did Bhajan. So did Bhishma.

G.S.Khaparde