Introduction and Offering to H H TKG

[Guest guest]

Hare Krishna!

PAMHO to all

 

My name is Dhyana and I am very happy in your association,I guess one

of the reasons I wanted to join this group is the need for Satsang,

to be with people who could understand what I am going trough,H H

Tamal Krishna Goswami is my gurudeva,even that I never received formal

innitiation from Him,he always considered me his diciple,and I had

accepted him in my heart as my guru,our relationship is very ,very

deep,I met him in 1986 first time I heard he was coming to Houston

Txs., I lived there then,everyone was very nervous and in anxiety,I

couldn't not understand how a teacher/father could create such

anxiety in the community,when the devotees told me he requested to

meet this new Hispanic Bakthina I was in terror!,but when I met him,

all my tension left,I saw him for what he was,a wonderful

caring,father,He was Part lion and part rose,he could be so hard and

yet so soft and caring,I never told him,but he was the reason I stayed

in the movement,I loved the way he defleted my ego,the way he broke

me, the way he made me eat humble pie,he cut with his teachings and

words the ropes of maya that I kept Myself tied to,and also his love,

the way he loved all of us,in all areas,in one letter that he sent me

in 1996 he tells me this," I am pleased to see you sign your name as

the dog of your spiritual master,and you reminded me of a time when

I was with Srila Prabhupada waiting for a Rata yatra ,at one point he

was playing with the kuntis at his neck and he said,"this is my dog

tag" I am my gurus dog,one should always think like this.,so a dog

is a lucky animal,he has a master who cares and love him,no worries

and suffering,since you consider your masters dog I promise to do my

best to see after your welfare in all the possible ways, insuring that

you go back home to Godhead",then he instructed me to read Prabhupadas

books daily ,to remain humble and to always preach,preaching for him

was the essence.

Since the news of his departure my world exploded,I have felt like a

dog without a master again,I been crying day and night,for my

stubbornes,and stupidity to have lost so much not following his

desires,I had the most wonderful gift and I didn't apreciated,do I

know in my heart he will want me to stop licking my wounds and pick

the arms and keep going,he was a great General,tough and hard,he set

very high standards,and now I apreciate that at least if not

deserving to be called his diciple I was his dog,I never did nothing

valuable in life,but taking shelter under the lotus feet of my master

H H TKG ,is my greatest achievement,may he bless us and keep guiding

us from the new battle field he is on,and may one day i can be with

him again and be his dog all over again.

by the way I live between Gainesville and Alachua florida and we have

a pretty big community.

thank you all and please pray I might find solace on the memories of

my beloved Gurudeva.

your dog servant always

dhyana aka tulsi