Please Help...

[Guest guest]

Dear respected Vaishnavas and Bhaktas;

 

I am in desperate need of some advise. I am incapable of deciding what is

it that I am supposed to do in this great predicament I am in.

 

By the mercy of the lord, I have been given a chance and permission to

worship Sri Saligram bhagwan. And we all know that in order to worship Sri

Saligram, the environment in which ones lives in and one himself, must be

really pure.

 

I live at home with my parents. Serving my parents has always been

important for me as I am their only child. Basically, the environment in

which I live in, in my opinion, is not ideal for the worshipping of Sri

Bhagwan. And it really hurts that I am not doing anything to rectify that

as in order to do so I would have to either leave home or ask my parents to

bring changes to their diet.

 

So that is what I did. I attempted to explain the importance of

maintaining a sattvic diet. I didn’t have any luck. I do also admit to

all respected bhaktas that I am also incapable of holding back my feelings

and have a tendency to get angry. Yes, I do admit it…I do get angry and say

harsh things that I regret. ( And I realise most of my weaknesses and its

main root, that is lack of humility and false ego). So I did get angry

towards my parents.

 

In short, in my attempt to create a shuddha environment around the house,

and in order to please Sri Bhagwan, I caused a lot of hurt to my family. I

became the source of hurt for everyone in my family, to an extent that they

have prepared to disown me.

 

I did not ever want to be the source of pain and hurt for anyone, let alone

my parents and family. But I have.

 

I feel so tiny and low as a person. My moral is really low. Hence I have

genuinely approached the sadhus and bhaktas, who are no different to GOD

himself to please advise me as I don’t want to be commiting a great offence

of hurting parents as I know that parents are the initial Gurus in ones

life.

 

What do I do? Do I stop worshipping Sri Saligram? Some bhaktas might say

that why did I start the worship In the first place, when the environment

wasn’t right. And I don’t think I am wrong in stating that I am incapable

of “obtaining” Sri Bhagwan. Sri Bhagwan swayam comes to one who HE permits

to serve HIM.

 

What does the lord state with regards to parents and Sadhana. Is there any

validity in the praying to GOD when ones parents are hurt and crying?

 

I am sure the Bhaktas do understand my situation. I bow down to the feet of

all devotees to show me the right path. The path that will lead me to

Sri-Hari ultimately. That is all I want. And I sincerely beg for your

mercy.

 

 

YS

D

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Hare Krishna Prabhu

there are a lot of devotional practices that we can do in a not proper

(satvik) environment: there is absolutely not harm in chanting Hare Krishna,

and this is the yuga dharma, and we can also read devotional books, Srimad

Bhagavatam, Bhagavad Gita etc.

The thing would be difficult also for little Gaura Nitai deities that do not

require complex worship if not, sometimes, chanting Harekrishna before

them...... but Salagram Shila who is already Krishna without any deity

installation is too much!!! I kindly advise you to give your Shila to a

devotee brahmin who can worship Him in a nicer situation... of course you

can agree with this sadhu to have the Shila back when your conditions are

better............ and also, have you the brahmana initiation??? you need

harinama and brahmana initiation and the autorization of you spiritual

master to perform this worship!!!!

 

your servant:

yasodanandanadasa florence italy

 

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