to Sadhvi - RE:request 2

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Dear Sadhvi,

 

I hope you don't mind my reacting to your post. I just want to thank

you for the wise words you wrote to another seeker. Although not

addressed to me, the message of loving patience and encouragement went

straight to my heart.

 

may our Divine Mother bless you always,

 

with love,

Henny

 

 

, "nityashakti" <sadhvi

wrote:

>

> >>>"Sadvi i want the Mula Mantra to medittate. I dont have any

wishes

> nor am expecting anything from her.

> Sadhvi there are many things which cannot be shared.

> Please help me

> I thik i boared you "<<

>

> Dear jesh...

> No..please do not think you have bored me or anything of that

kind.

> Your devotion to Maa Kali is so clear...I know She will answer your

> prayers directly. Why do these things happen when they do? I do not

> know. For many many years, I had a deep longing for true mantra

> initiation, instruction and to know, somehow, that the Divine Mother

> was truly hearing my prayers to Her. Sometimes I would think, "yes";

> other times, "no" or not being sure. I would cry (many times for

days

> on end) at my puja...just with the longing you are expressing.

> Finally, I realized that I had to let go of what I thought should

> happen and when it should happen. I had many experiences with

"false"

> teachers, many difficult things to go through. But I kept doing my

> sadhana because it was the one thing I never doubted. I think

Swamiji

> and Shree Maa give very good advice...to understand what it is that

> you truly want (beyond the mantra itself...what is your deep

longing)

> and then to keep your attention focused on that. I would ask myself

> this question when things seemed to get very difficult in my life or

> when I felt it was "time" for me to receive something but

> that "something" was not coming...(a practice or a mantra et.).

> Suddenly, around a year ago, everything opened in my life...and many

> things I had prayed for 15 years ago begin to flow in....but so

> unexpectedly...because my attention was focused on what I "truly

> wanted" beneath everything...to be fully immersed in that union with

> Pure Consciousness. when I received these things that I had so much

> longing for earlier in my sadhana, I could see how they would not

have

> been good for me to receive earlier because I was not balanced

enough

> to handle them..this is just my experience. I can't speak for anyone

> else.

> You have so much devotion and are living in circumstances that

many

> of us, here in the West, cannot imagine...having access to Temples

and

> priests, pujas and practices. I'm so sure your prayers will be

> answered when Maa Kali, Herself, feels that the time is right...as

you

> said, many things cannot be shared and, really, should simply be

> between you and your Beloved. I wish you the best and will pray for

> you.

> with love to you,

> sadhvi

>

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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