Remembering Srila Prabhupada - Mercy of my guru maharaja

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August 29

 

 

An Indian disciple, Niranjana dasa, who has been

working towards his Ph.D., requested permission to

discontinue his studies and take up devotional service

full-time. This Srila Prabhupada readily agreed to,

saying we were not interested in such degrees. "I have

written all these books without Ph.D.," Prabhupada

said. "These [books] are all the mercy of my Guru

Maharaja. No author throughout the world has written

so many books-Shakespeare, Milton, and Dickens.

Neither their books have been so widely read with such

appreciation."

Then Prabhupada began describing his feelings, now

that he had left India. "I am disgusted with the

Indian government. I am doing such a great work and

they are suspecting CIA. I do not wish to return

there. I have enough field here. Why should I protect

myself against that government? My best energy has

been spoiled there. I have no more desire to go back

to India. I do not wish to go back to be governed by

that nasty government. In India, they put me into so

much uncomfortable position. I sometimes cry." At this

point Srila Prabhupada became choked with tears in

anguish, because his countrymen had failed to

appreciate his great service. "They do not appreciate

me. By such treatment, I have lost my health. You

can't find such nice devotees there as are here. They

think everyone is God, everyone is transcendentalist.

They do not know what is bhakti. Cent percent, I do

not want to return. I have not got the sentiment,

'This is my country.' If I would have been driven by

this sentiment . . . no one leaves Vrndavana in this

condition. In mayapur, the government has asked why I

am using two or three bighas of land to construct a

prasadam pavilion. Instead of feeding a few hundred

people with produce of those few bighas, I am feeding

lakhs of people. And they harass me. Such a nasty

government! So either I get my permanent residency or

citizenship, or else make me a Commonwealth citizen

here. I have my estate. But I do not want to return

there. Now, I have revealed my heart's desire.

"Devotees here are all Vaikuntha men-good-looking and

nice-dressing. Gokulananda is so beautiful. I shall be

glad to die in that condition amongst the devotees

seeing Gokulananda."

 

- From the TKG's Diary by HH Tamal Krishna Goswami

Maharaj

 

 

 

 

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