The Bane of Blessings....

[Guest guest]

A chara Das and comrades....

 

> I was at first depressed that I didn't have any when I first got into

> Jyotish- no exalted planets I thought- what a bummer. Now I know much

> better than that.

 

I'm on the same wavelength as you here....when I initially began delving into

my chart I dipped into a bit of depression with the thought "this is all there

is? blech no wonder I have chronic depression" (nooo couldn't be that Saturn

aspecting my Moon could it hah!)....

 

Righty oh...

 

Hey though, I learn so quickly, am an avid reader and writer that it took me a

few kicks in the tushie to realize my scholarship ability...I thought to

my-self "what the heck am I going to do with a bunch of degrees? how is that

going to further me along in the world and take the world--humanity with

me--it's so unemotive!" (I so desired to be a singer/songwriter...belting out

tunes somewhere between the Kozmic Blues of Janis Joplin and the later

incarnation of the clinically self evaluative Alanis Morisette....)...I

continued to deny my esoterically dissective mental capacity as I have yet to

encounter anything in this world that I cannot learn (it's the influence of

Saturn con. Ketu in Gem in 9th--yeah, I know I bring this up ad nauseum...but

I'm pushing Das's point that life is potentially more difficult when certain

aspects assist in creating ease for an individual--it tends to make one rather

"blind" actually)....

 

The other downside of that Ketu/Saturn placement is that I do not memorize

facts, I absorb the concepts and put those to work in quite an abstract

manner...I love the sciences, but the base courses require memorization as does

math (otherwise I would have been a physics major instead of a Political

Science/Comparitive Govt./IR/Public Admin Major)!!! So, I skip right to quantum

theory and the philosophy of math as a language etc...theory, theory ,theory,

theory....that's all life is in my view anyway....oh yeah, and the repeated

attempts to apply those theories....an-other maddening trait...I have a short

attention span and throw my-self into a dizzying number of differing

subjects...I have had to train my-self to focus as much as possible...

 

Once again, a good butt kicking "straightened" me out thus far...

 

Sometimes it feels great to be spiritually slapped (of course not at the time

of the slapping, but afterwards...it's analogous to going for a run...at first

you're out of breath as your body adjusts to the shock, but then after a while

those endorphins kick in and you slip into that "runner's high" right before

your lungs are about to explode...whew!!"

 

Pardon my terrible spelling...once I get going on my "writers high" I'm wrapped

into thought and to heck with where the letters are placed....

 

Slante chugat,

 

Kat and

Kegan