Tobacco, Addiction, Death and Release

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Dr Cousons says Tobacco releases endorphins, the feel good chemical, the

quick fix feel good chemical.

 

I find cigarettes, like other addictions, release endorphins in us when we

thing of lighting up. It's mainly in the anticipation phase that you will

feel a slight swell in your chest, and rise on your eyebrow, and slight smile

of anticipation of pleasure and reward as you reach for the pack.

 

While smoking, one gets an endorphin orgasm. It's extremely comforting. So

tobacco is scientifically factually related to mood alteration and

neurotransmitter chemical manipulation like all other drugs and fixes for

them.

 

Then you have to deal with the lung/blood/body pollution of all those poisons

afterwards.

 

I started smoking and taking pot and LSD at 13. I did these heavily until I

joined at 19 (the whole time I got A's in school, president, honor roll,

skipped a grade, full scholarship to college, so much for common theories

about drugs).

 

I started lightly again at 26, and picked up over the last 8 years to an all

time bad low in the last few years due to coming to face my shit, which is

the fact that I am addictive, that I do feel needy as hell, that I am full of

pain over lack of love feelings, abandonment feelings, etc. Never faced it,

always ran, never knew that, never knew why I was crashing. It's typical.

Apply it to yourself and begin to heal.

 

So I know about smoking tobacco too, I'm sorry to admit. But I dislike these

things. My counselor suggested I watch Richard Priors standup act about his

relationship with his crack pipe, to see that I'm not alone in a love/hate

relationship with substances. Of course I'm not alone, and it's good to

process the feelings with others. Thanks for being able to face reality with

me.

 

We are not bad, we are sick. We need to heal. We are not addicts, we are

malnourished. We are soft presently, needy, but we can be strong and whole

instead of weak and needy. We can.

 

It's happening for me, a big leap with the first gulp of oil, and thereafter

it's been work, improving, still hard, but WAYYYY better, since straigtening

out diet overall, getting off milk, getting on oil, eating good, caring about

myself, seeking counsel, good counsel that knows these matters, going easy on

oneself, healing.

 

Is it time for you to heal? Don't you want to really feel good?

 

It is possible often for many of us to feel much better. We should try if we

can, if it's within reach, to improve our lives to make them as full as

possible.

 

Then there is the other side, when the change of body draws near, the chances

of significant rejuvination unrealistic to the eyes of all, then it is time

for something else. That is the time for full inward work. There is no need

to any longer focus on the body. But nutrition for the mind is still

important, and it's basically the same game, fully actually. So for a

different reason, clarity is still sought. I bow my head in honor towards

those facing the big test soon. May you do well. You will! The same love

that placed you here will place you again, and it's always better, that's the

promise of reality. Om Shanti. See you soon. And if you are recently

released, and still floating in grief, reading over someones shoulder, we

collectively hug you, and honor your healing. Don't we everybody? Yes, I hear

the yes. Yes, we love you, because we love ourselves. Your pains we knew,

because you were our neighbor. They came from the same things that make our

lives what they are. Each of us a puzzle piece. But all together we're the

puzzle. So we honor your piece, now you can look inside yourself, and love

yourself, and ask for release, and move on. It's history. Let's move on

together.

 

I am happy by seeing someone starting to love themself a little more.

 

I love you too.

 

You're beautiful.

 

The beginning.