The sun also rises

[Guest guest]

Hopefully, my drama is over. I'm doing well.

 

Sorry for using this list as a sounding board, best friend, or

compassionate listener. Now that I'm coming out of the fog, I'm finding

I do have the ability to have social contact here in Eugene. I'm making

some new friends.

 

I'm a wee bit embarrassed for my list revelations, but it's ok, not

really. It did some good. But some people I know do reject me here in

Eugene for my past illness manifestations in my life, and so I assume

the depression syndrome and symptoms are not well understand by everyone

here either. Oh well. No problemo.

 

By the way, for those with depression, I'm finding that the oil alone

for me was not enough. I think the initial rush it gave me was the

return of my dopamine function. But this wasn't everything. After about

a month I sank again, and to get out of this relapse, I read some more

stuff, and learned about the importance of specific vitamins and aminos,

and the high dosages required to cure depression.

 

So I bought some more supplements, amino acids, B vitamins, and others,

and now that I'm taking alot of these, along with the oil, I seem to be

achieving a steady state of energy, ability to handle the days normal

stresses without collapsing, freedom from panic and paranoia, and so on.

I also was able to part with being so addictive, and the part of life

known as romance no longer constantly pesters my psyche.

 

I'm also doing all the wholistic things, not just popping pills. I

listen to my body, and care about myself more now. I excercise

regularly, pay attention to my kids more, listen more to people

hopefully moreso than talking to them, appreciate, love, give, be calm,

take deep breaths, expect unfoldment without hurrying it, take one step

at a time, believe in love, believe in the goodness of others, and the

necessity of death as a part of life, and so on.

 

Last night a bhajan band was here in town. They had a nice concert. The

best of Eugene was there. It was like a meeting of the most heartfelt

hindu-style devoted people in Eugene. Lovely. It was good. So many fine

hearts and minds were there. I felt surrounded by good souls. At one

point we (200 people) chanted Om together for about 5 minutes. It was

awesome. The sound vibration was awesome- like floating in heaven

amongst a ton of humming angels. I couldn't believe it, it was great.

I'd never experienced a group om before. I was very happy. I danced my

heart out.

 

Thanks for listening,

 

dg