Guest guest Posted January 19, 2006 Report Share Posted January 19, 2006 Hey Das, You mentioned that you have Mars in your 12th house in the past. If I may, I would like to make an ayurvedic recommendation for your current situation. Since the 12th house pertains to the foot and leg area, you can take advantage of this astrological feature by jogging or walking around your neighborhood. Or, run a marathon if you're up to it. Also, you can take Tai Chi which exclusively works on your leg muscles to perform those choreographed movements. Besides, these are great ways to meet other people. Or, chasing after....(lol). I too have Mars on the 12th. Jogging helps me rest and sleep. Regards, John R. valist, Das Goravani <das@g...> wrote: > > > Condition: Up since 1 AM, jiggling, usually shaking on bed in fetal pos. > wishing there was a way to end this pain and lonliness. > > So now it¹s 8 AM. Time to type reflections. > > I wish I had real friends here. The kind that are loving and kind. I don¹t. > I have an acquaintance and my real friend is being prevented from seeing me > by another. My one. So now I¹m down to oh yeah, my one other. So I have > one. Shiza. Not Good. > > I have to call a friend in Europe just to talk to someone. Can you believe > that? > > It hurts. > > I went to the Irish jam, it¹s so packed that you can¹t get it, and then it¹s > full of egos even bigger than mine so...had to leave. No luck. No joy. No > friends. Never. > > Nobody wants to hear from us, from those in pain. They want us to go away, > or just be quiet behind a closed door. I am so worth something. Why doesn¹t > anybody want me? > > When my little granddaughter it waking up each day, I can hold her and she > flops on me, half asleep. Holding her is so nice, such a loving flop...such > a dependent complete flop upon my chest and shoulder, asleep, loves me. > That¹s what I want. A lot of hugging, and trust, and the quiet times > together, the night, the morning, the love. > > But rather what I have is lonliness. I am a good person. Why doesn¹t > somebody want me. Why am I being wasted? I never wanted anything but to > help the world situation. I devoted my life to it so long ago. Everybody > mundane is boring to me. I am a missionary or government leader type. Why is > it like this for me? What the heck is going on. > > I hate this pain. This lonliness. This depression. > > Can¹t someone tell someone in Eugene to care about me? > > I want to make things. I need help. I need someone to know me and care > about me and love me. Aren¹t I worth that? Aren¹t I interesting and > handsome? Aren¹t I experienced and travelled, can provide, unless this > dieing off continues, which a spouse,partner, lover, wife, best friend, > soulmate, would stop, easily, with loves touch. > > I¹m sorry to anyone I¹ve hurt. I¹m sorry to any woman I¹ve hurt or I should > say THE woman I¹ve hurt. > > Now the crying has started. > > Will I ever see an end to this, or will I die with it? Will I ever be > loved, or I am meant to be curled up in a position of sorrow forever? What > will happen today? Another day of pain, like yesterday, and the day before? > And before? Etc... > > I am writing HERE because like I said, I don¹t have anybody else who isn¹t > completely sick of listening to me or can¹t do anything and I just bum them > out. > > God this is a trap, a circle that never ends. I want to work. I want this > TO END! > > Thanks > > Rick MacQuoid das@g... > AIM: ROIKMACKAI IM: das_goravani > > Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 3 > > > > > > or > (Please use email if at all possible) > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2006 Report Share Posted January 19, 2006 Yesterday was so bad, so today, I got up and thought "let me shave some of this beard off", and while I was doing that, I suddenly got completely energized, like, "I can do it, I can be a member of any group, I am a good person, I am strong in fact, I'm OK". I got this impulse very strongly. It was quite empowering. I think someone was sending me some good vibes right then or something. During that moment, I saw that part of the power was what we call exercise, and I think in the past it was called "living" or "working", but today we call it exercise because we "invented better" long ago. Hmmm. Yeah, I've gotta be more physical. When I was writing GJ2 back in the old days, I jogged nearly perfectly every other day for 4 miles. That was a good strong bit of exercise at least for cardio and legs, though jogging is the best overall workout they say. Anyway, it always came naturally to me because I'm SOOOO restless by nature, but I haven't been doing it for quite awhile now. I think if I do it again, may make a huge difference in my life. Thanks Rick MacQuoid AIM: ROIKMACKAI IM: das_goravani Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 3 or (Please use email if at all possible) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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