Guest guest Posted January 18, 2006 Report Share Posted January 18, 2006 Dear Das Goravani, Namaste You seem to be starting to feel better Lack of food, lack of friends, lack of companionship -- it is all one issue: lack. Please take in some food and the rest has a chance of coming too. You have denied yourself the nourishment in the form of food and yet have cried out to the world for the nourishment in the form of a woman! Denying yourself nourishment IS denying yourself nourishment. The simple step of imbibing some warm, nourishing food will help alleviate the fear and loneliness, sleeplessness, that is a hallmark of excess Vata. And will start to ease the feeling of "lack". In North America we're in the seasonal juncture between early and late winter. It is a very vulernable time of year for Vata types. Late winter is dominated by space & air, and is pervaded by the bitter taste. You don't have to cook for yourself. You can eat regularly at a restaurant. But garner the compassion and patience for yourself and start to nourish yourself again. *Whole oats* or other thick pouridges would be great. Or hearty vegetable soups. Whole moong dhal, brown rice. It doesn't have to be any of those foods - Devi has blessed us with a large variety to choose from, but the main thing is to start receiving nourishment regularly again. My beloved teacher, Sri Swamini Mayatitananda, says "Food is the Mother Essence of Healing" Things that you may have considered to be small in the past - maybe they are not so "small". And when we take care of such things, the big pain, big hurt, big loneliness doesn't become an issue. It is good learn this now, rather than in the winter of your life. I could do well to follow this advice as well Devi has blessed us with abundance let us not deny ourselves nourishment With Love, and Gratitude for your candor, Sean Om Karunayai Namah Sri Gurubhyo Namah valist, Das Goravani <das@g...> wrote: > > > Back then, I had a wife, who did all the small stuff. > I made the big stuff, which included software and our money. > Then there was B, and she did the same thing, pretty much. > I¹ve never had to cook for myself. Live alone. Cry like this. > I can make bigger things, and always have. > I was helped, by a partner, but no more, for so long. > It¹s just so hard to even cook, to eat, and I whither. > It¹s so hard to believe I will live to the point of finding love. > I don¹t think I will. I think I am withering. > To start all over, running, eating, working, just to qualify? > To make the mirage complete for an average woman? > Where is my woman who already gets it, and isn¹t 10 yrs on. > There¹s a point where the drowning beast gives up. > At that point you feel so tired. I feel so tired. > Gaelic songs give me some happiness, so pretty, so pretty. > I only have one local friend to call. Then after that I cry. Alone. Fear. > I am trying to get up and better, but it¹s not working. > I have no more faith or hope in any healers. > I believe it is caused by me, by my unique relationship with life. > With people, with religion, with spirit, India, sex, woman, family, duties. > It has to do with everything. It is my sum total. My Net. > So fragile, need exercise, can barely move. > One woman who is insightful told me I am like a King now forced to be > normal, and really, need helpers to get it all done. Yeah. Something like > that. > At least eating and not being so alone would be good. > Thanks > > Rick MacQuoid das@g... > AIM: ROIKMACKAI IM: das_goravani > > Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 3 > > > > > > or > (Please use email if at all possible) > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 18, 2006 Report Share Posted January 18, 2006 Wishing you happiness das Goravani Rachel Cleary Das Goravani <das (AT) goravani (DOT) com>valistTo: "valist" <valist>That was thenWed, 18 Jan 2006 09:37:11 -0800 Back then, I had a wife, who did all the small stuff.I made the big stuff, which included software and our money.Then there was B, and she did the same thing, pretty much.I’ve never had to cook for myself. Live alone. Cry like this.I can make bigger things, and always have.I was helped, by a partner, but no more, for so long.It’s just so hard to even cook, to eat, and I whither.It’s so hard to believe I will live to the point of finding love.I don’t think I will. I think I am withering.To start all over, running, eating, working, just to qualify?To make the mirage complete for an average woman?Where is my woman who already gets it, and isn’t 10 yrs on.There’s a point where the drowning beast gives up.At that point you feel so tired. I feel so tired.Gaelic songs give me some happiness, so pretty, so pretty.I only have one local friend to call. Then after that I cry. Alone. Fear.I am trying to get up and better, but it’s not working. I have no more faith or hope in any healers.I believe it is caused by me, by my unique relationship with life.With people, with religion, with spirit, India, sex, woman, family, duties.It has to do with everything. It is my sum total. My Net.So fragile, need exercise, can barely move. One woman who is insightful told me I am like a King now forced to be normal, and really, need helpers to get it all done. Yeah. Something like that.At least eating and not being so alone would be good.ThanksRick MacQuoid das (AT) goravani (DOT) comAIM: ROIKMACKAI IM: das_goravanihttp://www.goravani.com Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 32852 Willamette St #353 or (Please use email if at all possible): For software visit: ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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