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Wednesday, March 01, 2006 4:11 AM

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Hello

 

Re the discussion of late on Jyotish Vidya about me, I would like to

clarify

a few points:

 

I saw that a number of intense drugs like LSD were mentioned near my

name,

which could lead some to believe I take these. I do not. The author

was

talking in general.

 

The author said he had some contact with me, which implies authority,

but

quite a few things were wrong nonetheless, and I do not recognize

that

persons name, at least not their Sanskrit name. I share freely about

myself

with people I don¹t know, on the phone, and so there are a number of

people

around the world who have talked to me about my stuff.

 

One thing that was wrong is that indeed I have had a psychiatrist who

is my

prescriber without cessation for many years. So that part was wrong.

 

Some of my siblings have gotten diagnosis from their doctors, but I

have not

gotten a specific one, as I don¹t fit perfectly, but Lithium, the

drug for

Bipolar, worked for me very well on one part of my problem, which was

the

most intense part, I don¹t know what to call it except ³extreme and

continual panic without cessation for months². So I respond to

Lithium, but

that doesn¹t conclude the diagnosis. I still rely on it. If I stop

it, the

problem comes back, and the problem is completely debilitating. It is

total

dizziness of a certain type, with panic, very lost and upset, very

gone.

Lithium just brings that all to a stop, as Jean Claude Van Dam says,

³It

stops the lake from spinning around your head².

 

Besides my meds I use a weak herb for self medication. I consider it

to be

much weaker than say alchohol, and definitely, it is not close to the

³white

drugs², you know, the powders and pills which are the real heavy

drugs,

which I don¹t go near.

 

So I¹m admitting to some of the points, but only mildly.

 

It¹s very hard to diagnose me.

 

My shrink doesn¹t like labels, because they¹re much harder to get out

of.

 

I agree.

 

I¹m doing better all the time. The worst seems over, years back now.

 

Although I no longer to or worship any deities, sampradaya,

school, religion, cult, sect, particular belief or particular line, I

still

consider myself a very spiritual person, into knowledge and truth as

always,

and in my case, trying to survive mentally, trying to maintain

sanity, get

back to it more through including but not limited to taking care in

diet and

exercise and sleep.

 

I do have something, so do some siblings, and father, and whether

genetic or

caused by exposure to my mother, her Catholicness and intensity, who

knows,

but there is something to be dealt with, and it shows up in the chart

for

sure, so much Saturn on the moon in Rasi and Navamsa, and Ketu also,

but

Saturn¹s dasha is over, and I feel good about what¹s happening with

me now.

 

I don¹t want to talk about my personal life, what¹s new and such,

yet, but

things are changing. My dasha is kicking as, as my Saturn also did

clearly

long ago.

 

Rapid cycling bipolar 2B is what I think I am. Rapid cycling means

you

cannot discern the cycles easily, cuzz they come and go fast. For

me, it¹s

day to day.

 

The 2 B part means in ³Kay Jamison speak²* that my ups are somewhat

productive, no destructive to my life, and that the highs are not so

up.

 

It¹s just a way of classifying all the types, each person being

another new

one. I mean, in this business, every case is unique though there are

similarities so the ³classifiers² of the world go with those, and

give them

names and numbers and such.

 

The best news from my end is that I am truly doing better and better.

That¹s really true. It¹s slow, but it¹s happening, because I do not

do now

what I used to do in terms of really falling apart completely and

becoming

completely psychotic about lonliness and such. That¹s not happening

now for

awhile.

 

Enough on me. Have nice lives!

 

Rick

Das Goravani