Ugly and Karma

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Hi all,

 

I was wondering about acne scar problem indicators in Vedic Charts. I

have a very acne scarred face. I am not talking about blemishes. I am

talking about craters. You would think that I look like the moon which

has craters. heheheheh Seriously, these acne scars on my face make

me very insecure and have low self esteem. I feel so ugly that shun

myself from human interaction when it comes to social things. I really

feel like a freak. I keep getting acne scars too. The only thing that

cheers me up is that my belief that these acne scars happened for a

reason,and that reason is to learn to be humble. They really do help

me be that way, and I feel that I am very nice person,and my ugliness

has made me even nicer. My history of auditory type Dyslexia and

Dyspraxia have also made me feel humble because I grew up feeling

that I am dumb. I had both feelings of intellecutal and physical

inadequacies that made me the humble person that I am. Unfortunately,

it has made me very shy,insecure and self conscious that I developed

anxiety and depression. I don't like go out and socialize with others

because of my ugliness. I am afraid to look at people in the face.

Pervasive loneliness is something that has always been around. I have

never experienced true love. I have never even had a girlfriend. My

insecurities about myself led me to push others away and to shun

myself. Ever since I understood my auditory type Dyslexia and

Dyspraxia, I understand that I am very intelligent but perceive

differently. Therefore, I don't feel stupid all the time. However,

I feel ugly all the time. Every time I see myself in the mirror, I

get depressed. At times, I feel that I am punished by God and

paying off karma. I do have retrograde 6th/7th house lord Saturn in

Taurus in 10th aspecting my Ketu in Cancer in 12th,12th house lord

Moon in Aquarius in 7th, 4th/8th house lord Jupiter in 4th, and

4th/9th house lord Mars in 7th. My scars do make me an extremely

serious person. I am coming to the realization that I will never be

married and have children,and so I should be single for the rest of my

life. I just recently got my certificate in massage therapy,and so I

will just focus on my holistic health career. I also want to be more

serious about spirituality too. I feel that I need to concentrate on

things on things that aren't so superficial like my face. Working on

my innerlife will help me deal with my outerlife better.

 

 

 

 

 

October 29, 1971

3:20 AM

San Francisco, California

 

 

 

Raymond