Help needed:Unable to decide on which direction I must proceed

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Namaste,

I do not usually come to astrolgers for consultation despite

believing in it.But I am in a state of perpetual confusion.Further

certain events have eroded my confidence,despite myself being proud

of what I can achieve.Then again there is a further confusion

because,

I feel all material achievements are any way of no use,and the best

thing would be to quickly settle in life and focus on the spiritual.

Let me put my background-

1.I was a guy recognized by friends as knowledgable,but as of now

suceeded in proving nothing but completing an engineering degree,and

a job in one of the biggest Indian software company.

2.About an year back,I got an oppurtunity to do my post graduation

in IIT.I was so disillusioned with life,that I wanted to achieve

something higher,so I did not take it up(despite being seriously

interested in research, especially that related to programming).

3.Never was I able to be a topper,despite being recognized,by even

my class toppers as a good solver problems(myself solved problems

that they sometimes could not).

4.The job I joined did not prove as challenging I wanted,neither

does there seem to be scope for quick jumps in salary.I get

irritation that people less intelligent than me are doing research

or earning more money.Further frustration is there,since I am

worried that with my salary I may not even be able to marry a girl

that is intelligent and satvic.Today girls want husbands who earn

more than rs.50000,a month.

 

 

Thus the options before me are the following.

 

1.Even though it may be a little late,I could join postgraduation(In

IIT OR iisc,foreign education not affordable) 2 years from now(in a

course related to software,more in continuity with what I am doing

in job) or immediately this june(in a course more related to

hardware).But would it make sense,if I dont pursue the logical

end,and do a phd,since research companies prefer a phd,no point in

doing mtech just for another non research job.If i were to proceed

for phd ,it might become too late to marry and settle.That would be

difficult,as I would like to dedicate my middle ages to

spirituality.Once I know my career is set,I want to focus on

spirituality,after all,who knows how long I could live.

2.Do an MBA AFTER 2 YEARS.But i am afraid of facing the

interviews,as I have felt that people dont have the patience to

listen to a boring talk of mine,I talk too slowly,stammer

sometimes,and put some points which are not understood or

appreciated by people.Only when people get into intimate

conversations with me do they understand that I am really talking

something highly intellectual,unusual,but undoubtedly insightfull

and deep.Thus I am afraid how far a non research job would suit

me,that too a job which involves superficial communication with

people.I am also peculiar,for instance,I might not eat anything in a

party where non vegetarian food is served,as I feel that something

somewhere could have been mixed up.ALL this and more create problems

when I try to socialize.

 

3.The 3rd option is to,Continue with my job and hope to grow very

gradually ,without feeling jealous of others who earn more,and

accept a wife,that destiny has chosen you for,even if she might not

be very intelligent.

 

These are my options,and I would like to know which of the three

would be better suited to me.

 

My birth details are-

p.s.harish,

8 may,1980,

11:47 am,

chennai,

India