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Sri Svapna-vilasamrtastaka

Eight Prayers Describing Nectar Pastimes in a Dream

 

by Srila Visvanatha Chakravarti Thakura

 

1 priya svapne drsta saridina-sutevatra pulinam

yatha vrndaranye natana-patavas tatra bahavah

mrdangadyam vadyam vividham iha kascid dvija-manih

sa vidyud-gaurangah ksipati jagatim prema-jaladhau

 

Srimati Radharani said: Beloved, in a dream I saw a river shore like the

Yamuna here. There were many expert dancers as in Vrndavana. There were

mrdangas and other instruments. There was a brahmana jewel as splendid as

lightning who was tossing the universe into an ocean of pure love.

 

2 kadacit krsneti pralapati rudan karhicid asau

kva radhe ha heti svasiti patati projjhati dhrtim

nataty ullasena kvacid api ganaih svaih pranayibhis

trnadi-brahmantam jagad atitaram rodayati sah

 

Sometimes He calls out: "O Krsna!" and sometimes He sighs: "O Radha, where

are You?" Sometimes He falls to the ground, sometimes He acts wildly,

losing all composure, and sometimes He dances ecstatically with His loving

associates. He has made all the residents of this world, from the blades of

grass up to Lord Brahma, loudly call out the name of Krsna.

 

3 tato buddhir bhranta mama samajani preksya kim aho

bhavet so 'yam kantah kim ayam aham evasmi na parah

aham cet kva preyan mama sa kila cet kvaham iti me

bhramo bhuyo bhuyan abhavad atha nidram gatavati

 

As I gazed at Him, My intelligence became bewildered. If He is my lover,

where am I? If He is I, where is My lover? If He is My lover, where am I?

As I slept, I became more and more bewildered.

 

4 priye drstva tas tah kutukini maya darsita-cari

ramesadya murtir na khalu bhavati vismayam agat

katham vipro vismapayitum asakat tvam tava katham

tatha bhrantim dhatte sa hi bhavati ko hanta kim idam

 

Sri Krsna said: O inquisitive girl, when I showed You Narayana and My other

forms You were not surprised. Why does this brahmana surprise You? Why

does He bewilder You so You say "Who is He?"

 

5 iti procya prestham ksanam atha paramrsya ramano

hasann akuta jnam vyanudad atha tam kaustubha-manim

tatha diptim tene sapadi sa yatha drstim iti tad

vilasanam laksmam sthira-cara-ganaih sarvam abhavat

 

After speaking these words to His beloved, the smiling lover, Krsna, touched

His Kaustubha jewel. The jewel, understanding the Lord's intent, glowed and

then showed all the same pastimes and all the moving and non moving entities

She saw in her dream.

 

6 vibhavyatha proce priyatama maya jnatam akhilam

tavakutam yat tvam smitam atanuthas tattvam asi mam

sphutam yan navadir yad abhimatir atrapy aham iti

sphuranti me tasmad aham api sa evety anumime

 

Srimati Radharani reflected for a moment and said: Beloved, I know what is

in Your heart now that makes You smile. You are He. What You have said and

thought is now clear to Me, and therefore I think I am also He.

 

7 yad apy asmakinam rati-padam idam kaustubha-manim

pradipyatraivadidrsad akhila-jivan api bhavan

sva-saktyavirbhuya svam akhila-vilasam pratijanam

nigadya premabdhau punar api tadahasyasi jagat

 

Making this Kaustubha jewel, which is so delightful to Us, shine in this

way, You have revealed Yourself to all living entities. By Your own

transcendental potency You will appear, display Your pastimes, teach

everyone, and again plunge the world into the ocean of pure love.

 

8 yad uktam gargena vraja-pati-samaksam sruti-vida

bhavet pito varnah kvacid api tavaitan na hi mrsa

atah svapnah satyo mama ca na tada bhrantir abhavat

tvam evasau saksad iha yad anubhuto 'si tad-rtam

 

In the king of Vraja's presence, the learned Vedic scholar Gargacarya said

that You will appear with a yellow complexion. He did not lie. This dream

of Mine is true. It is not an illusion. In this dream I have directly seen

You.

 

9 pibed yasya svapnamrtam idam aho citta-madhupah

sa sandeha-svapnat tvaritam iha jagarti su-matih

avaptas caitanyam pranaya-jaladhau khelati yato

bhrsam dhatte tasminn atula-karunam kunja-nrpatau

 

If the bumble-bee of the reader's mind drinks the nectar of this

Svapna-vilasamrta, then that intelligent reader will quickly awaken from the

dream of materialistic doubt. Such a reader will attain Lord Caitanya

Mahaprabhu. He will sport in the ocean of pure love. He will attain the

peerless mercy of the king of Vrndavana.