sloka from hari bhakti kalpa latika

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this sloka is from 14th cluster sloka 6th from Hari bhakti Kalpa latika

(written by unknown vaisnava) published by Bhaktivinode Thakura's son

Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati

 

ahni svodara-purti-matra-vikalo nidra-smarehadibhir

 

dunpuraic ca manorathair aviratair aknipta-ceto nici

 

evaa tvad-vimukho 'pi dasyam adhunayat prarthaye tavakaa

 

Škcantavyo 'yaa apatrapasya karuea-sindho 'paradho hi me

 

ahni-- during the daytime; sva-- own; udara-- belly; p/urti-- for

filling; m/atra-- only; vikala/h--agitated; nidr/a-- for

sleeping; smara-- for sex-life; iha-- endeavors; adibhi/h-- etc.;

du/sp/urai/h-- difficult to attain; ca-- and; manorathai/h--

desires; aviratai/h-- continual; /ak/sipta-- tossed about;

ceta/h-- mind; ni/si-- at night; evam-- in this way; tvat-- to

You; vimukha/h-- averse; api-- although; d/asyam-- devotional

service; adhuna-- at this moment; y/at-- because; pr/arthaye-- I

am begging; t/avakam-- Your; k/santavya/h-- may be forgiven;

ayam-- this; apatrapasya-- of a shameless; person; karu/n/a-- of

mercy; sindho-- O ocean; apar/adha/h-- offense; me-- my.

 

O Lord, during the daytime I am simply worried how I will

fill my belly, and at night I am engaged in sleeping and sex. My

mind is tossed to and fro by unending difficult-to-fulfill

desires. Although I have been averse to You, I am now praying to

be engaged in Your service. O Ocean of mercy, please be kind to

this shameless person and forgive his offenses.