even if only mentally violated it is difficult to regain

[Guest guest]

Besides Syamasundara, none of the householders in Europe had children, and

although that was one of the main functions of marriage, I did not consider

it. Nor was I thinking of the problems Mukunda was now facing due to marital

entanglement. I had an idealized conception that somehow this arrangement

would make me stronger for preaching Krsna consciousness. Months of close

association with the grhasthas in London and the absence of any peers among

the brahmacaris had had its effect, and once I had begun thinking in this

way, it was hard to change. The celibacy of brahmacarya, even if only

mentally violated, was difficult to regain.

 

>>> Ref. VedaBase => "SERVANT OF THE SERVANT", CHAPTER NINE