mode of ignorance

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> Dear Sri Visnupada,

>

> Please accept my humle obeisances.

>

> I'd like to ask in the context of yesterday's class that what hope

> is there for a person who is very prone to be under the influence of

> the mode of ignorance? I experienced that even I make a decision

> that from now on I'm going to do the sadhana program every day and I

> don't care if the body is weak or the mind gives me trouble, and I

> go on with it fine for a while, and I am very happy doing it,

> thinking that it's pleasing you, but then after a while the

> determination somehow wears off, and the modes of nature conquer

> over again. Then after a while I say again, I had enough of this,

> and I'm going to do it no matter what, and like this it goes up and

> down. It seems to me that even I want to do it, my gross and subtle

> body is such that it's dragging me back all the time, and my

> determination is too weak to continuously conquer over it. Please

> help. What should I do?

>

> ys mdd

 

Yes, this is a symptom of ignorance. One who is determined to follow

the temple programs and perform his duty is in the mode of goodness.

To remain on that platform all the time is very difficult for those

who are not naturally in goodness. The only solution for a person

like you, or anyone who has the same problem, is to keep on picking

herself up every time she falls back and continue this process till

there is a maintenance of the higher platform. This might take a long

time, even many years, but when one has a natural taste for the

hearing and chanting process, then one can always be in goodness and

conquer over the lower modes. So in conclusion, what you are doing is

good and you should continue. Keep on being determined to continue

with the sadhana and gradually you will become more attached to it.

It should become as essential as eating.