getting the mercy!

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My dearmost Guru Maharaja,

 

Please accept my respectful obeisances at Your lotus feet. All glories to

Your Divine Grace! All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

 

Sometimes I heard You saying that one should be hungry for getting the mercy

of Guru and Krishna. So my question is how to manage this in order to let

others to get the mercy too? For example only one person can dress Radharani

on a particular day, so I want to do it, and somehow they invite me to do it

etc. and so I'm happy, but I also think, may be I should renounce and let

that other devotee do it, even though she didn't ask for it, for sure it

will enthuse her in her spiritual life. But if you consider yourself the

most fallen and in more need of mercy, why would you do it? if you think no

one is in more need than you?

 

Sometimes it's hard to renounce to specific services that one considers like

special mercies. Or sometimes one my choose to do some specific services in

secret so others don't get the idea and let you without that particular

service because two persons are too much for an small service for example.

 

I'm sorry if this is a foolish question. But it's a doubt I have. Thank You

for Your time and patience.

 

Your insignificant servant,

Vijaya Radha devi dasi