Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 sal wrote: dear sister, why do you plant the seed of doubt that you will ever be well enough to go to India? I would never presume to understand the depth of your burden, but I do see that each time you not only think you will never be well enough to go, but also then manifest that thought by putting it into writing, you place yourself farther from your goal. ....embrace the goddess within yourself, affirm that you are not your body, you will be well, and you will one day set foot on your beloved India... in my heart, I know you will....and with great love the mother river will welcome you with open arms! Dear sal ~ you are so right. I know that by my thoughts and by my writing, which are also collections of thoughts, I am subtly, and sometimes not so subtly, manifesting reality. I was very moved by senka's post because I don't recall her ever mentioning her illness, while I have mentioned mine often. I think part of that is because it is so difficult to keep up with our group sankalpas, and then I feel badly, but Nanda has been working with me to help overcome that "too little" idea. So I am going to have an experiment in the digest .... and not mention my illness. I guess we'll see how far I get, but it certainly isn't a necessary or significant part of my sharing here, and like you say, it is very likely holding me back. So I thank you for this kind reminder, and I will turn my thought as you suggest, which can only help me. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 to linda if you did not mention your illness how would one know to have empathy? it is good you mention it. at any rate illness takes over your being at times...i know this well enough. can seem to cover us more and more. but thru reading of the great saints like nityananda and ramakrishna...and watching the saints go about thier lives like shree maa and swamajii, we get examples and inklings as too how we may carry our burdens. it cant be emphasized enough how carefully we need to listen to their words and read the writings. it is true enough, when ill, we cannot travel easily and chanting japa using mala can be impossible...exhausting. but sometimes we may find another way to continue if we are open to what the Goddess may offer. many years ago i was told a story of a great guru's sister. she was nearing the end of her life and was very ill. she was weeping in front of the alter, on wich stood deities of Lord Krishna and Radharani. a young bhakta came over and said "matta, why do you weep so?" and she replied "take me too Vrindavan. i need to go and be with Krishna." she seemed so distraught that the bahkta franticly tried to make arrangements for her to go. but nothing worked out and the doctors said she was much too ill to travel. so he returned to the temple room where she sat weeping and said" i am so sorry but i can not arrange for your travels" and the woman looked at him and smiled...she said" oh no, not that Vrindavan...the one in here" and she held her hand to her heart. so when we are chanting holy nama we are associating with this. and this transports us to holy places. our meditation is as being there. and with joy we can accept this. i most likely wont be going back to india physically for many reasons...but my heart goes all the time. we have been many places in many bodies...this time around....if you are ment to go you will go no matter your state of health. take heart and see positive. take care. in warmth machenka nierika (AT) aol (DOT) com wrote: sal wrote: dear sister, why do you plant the seed of doubt that you will ever be well enough to go to India? I would never presume to understand the depth of your burden, but I do see that each time you not only think you will never be well enough to go, but also then manifest that thought by putting it into writing, you place yourself farther from your goal. ....embrace the goddess within yourself, affirm that you are not your body, you will be well, and you will one day set foot on your beloved India... in my heart, I know you will....and with great love the mother river will welcome you with open arms! Dear sal ~ you are so right. I know that by my thoughts and by my writing, which are also collections of thoughts, I am subtly, and sometimes not so subtly, manifesting reality. I was very moved by senka's post because I don't recall her ever mentioning her illness, while I have mentioned mine often. I think part of that is because it is so difficult to keep up with our group sankalpas, and then I feel badly, but Nanda has been working with me to help overcome that "too little" idea. So I am going to have an experiment in the digest ... and not mention my illness. I guess we'll see how far I get, but it certainly isn't a necessary or significant part of my sharing here, and like you say, it is very likely holding me back. So I thank you for this kind reminder, and I will turn my thought as you suggest, which can only help me. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda Please visit us online at http://www.ShreeMaa.org ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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