Chandi Path...

[Guest guest]

Pranams Most beloved Mother and Swamiji,

 

Recently, I spoke with Srini, in regards to not having the time to

really be involved with the Mandir (on-line family), etc. My

Theological Studies (Roman Catholic), have been keeping me away from

participating such that I became very angry, over and over again,

regarding my sense to not fitting in as a Roman Catholic all my

life. But, because of past life merits, this Christian experience

that I feel karma is leading me astray, and also not fully

understand that I remain Catholic, or maybe shouldn't! This maybe

the problem.

Although I do see myself as a Gnostic Christian,(I could tell you

stories)and very opininated one at that; I mean to say, when the

kittle is black, I ussually say, the kittle is black, but this has

gotten me in trouble with my monastic superiors in the past, though,

no longer a monastic since 2000. But, aside from that, the reason I

am writing this morning is to request of your precious time for a

moment. What I'am saying to you, is not to embelish myself in any

way, but to try to understand what is wrong or right about my life,

and how can I teach and heal others? In other words, how can I

locate and maintain my certral core of soul, and express my spirit

without being chastised by others.What I am trying to figure out in

this souljourn, that past life dynamics like repeating sacred

mantras, but when I do, I become very depressed then, angry.

 

Some of these spiritual events,such as a current one in the world;

ex:MERIPI VOLCANIC ERUPTION, three days before it occured, I heard

this in meditation, or see people who have been murdered most recent

times, to continue to come to me, in order that I would be able to

help their family memebers locate their bodies, and the like,etc.

But, I try to pray their spirits instead cross to the othe side,

instead. This does uplift me spiritually.

 

To make a longer story shorter, I feel, this old cord has been

played for too long now, and I wonder, where this is leading, too!

Maybe, my soul is restless to come back into a proper form (Yeshe

Gompa), but feel I am not to repeat Tibetan experiences in this

life, again, on the other hand, would inquier as to properly convert

to HINDUISM? However, my Hindu friends have told me in the past at

Maharshi University, in Fairfield, Iowa, that I am more HINDU than

Chriatian. Nevertheless, I have experiences that are not the average

expereinces individual's recognize. This is why I feel that HINDUISM

brings out my [soul scripting] in profound clarity for me, that the

language, Sanskrit, really sparks my soul, and gives me increasingly

clarity,to my nervous system; to mind, body, and spirit.

 

But, instead of staying on track with Sanskrita and Chandi Path, I

have to spend that time on Christian Theology. I know that these

are huge life's questions (karma) that I just felt that I needed to

wrtie to somebody who knows. What blessing you have, I would be so

greatful to understand.

 

 

So, before,the sequence comes to serve in order to be blessed,

Secondly, how to come back to reading the Chandi Path, that gives me

more gentleness when repeated?

 

My love in recitation of Holy mantras is the very core of my nature

and my being. But, feel stuck, and even wonder, when I do the

Chandi Path, especially, what Srini recommended, which I sense is

very correct from me; Sapta Sloka Durga, Devya Kavacam that even

doing Navarna Vidhih have had tremendous effects on me. So, much

that I had to stop. I was razing negative energies within, or at

least, I felt depressed and then angry, but knew right away that I

was being "healed", as it were of these old hidden energies.

 

I don't wish to take to much of your time, so on this note, PRANAMS<

 

>Restless in Seattle<

Would it ok to have you respond to this, thank you!

 

Edward

 

Most gracious SatGuruji's; Jai Mataji, Jai Swamiji...HARE RAM

VITTALA PANDURANGA, JAI

[Guest guest]

Pranams Edward,

Wow. I also have struggled somewhat with the Roman Catholic / Hindu, push - pull effect. It seems that the problems are from the established organizations, with all the rules and do's and don'ts.

My sense is that it would be helpful for you if you can spend a little time in Swami Ji's physical presence. Not sure how you can manage it , but it's possible. It's not easy to sit down and have a long conversation with Swami Ji, because He's very busy all the time, but this also is sometimes possible.

Swami Ji embodies the merging together of many types of traditions in a harmonious way. For example I have heard that Swami can, and sometimes does, say the Mass in Latin. Of course Swami is a walking knowledge base of sanskrit and Hindu worship. Swami Ji brings these two together as if there was never any separation to begin with. In reference to some of the things you mention in your post, there are also stories of Swami Ji helping souls who are stuck , or needing to get crossed over to the other side, etc.

All the best to you !

 

Edward <cosmicsource > wrote:

Pranams Most beloved Mother and Swamiji,

 

Recently, I spoke with Srini, in regards to not having the time to

really be involved with the Mandir (on-line family), etc. My

Theological Studies (Roman Catholic), have been keeping me away from

participating such that I became very angry, over and over again,

regarding my sense to not fitting in as a Roman Catholic all my

life. But, because of past life merits, this Christian experience

that I feel karma is leading me astray, and also not fully

understand that I remain Catholic, or maybe shouldn't! This maybe

the problem.

Although I do see myself as a Gnostic Christian,(I could tell you

stories)and very opininated one at that; I mean to say, when the

kittle is black, I ussually say, the kittle is black, but this has

gotten me in trouble with my monastic superiors in the past, though,

no longer a monastic since 2000. But, aside from that, the reason I

am writing this morning is to request of your precious time for a

moment. What I'am saying to you, is not to embelish myself in any

way, but to try to understand what is wrong or right about my life,

and how can I teach and heal others? In other words, how can I

locate and maintain my certral core of soul, and express my spirit

without being chastised by others.What I am trying to figure out in

this souljourn, that past life dynamics like repeating sacred

mantras, but when I do, I become very depressed then, angry.

 

Some of these spiritual events,such as a current one in the world;

ex:MERIPI VOLCANIC ERUPTION, three days before it occured, I heard

this in meditation, or see people who have been murdered most recent

times, to continue to come to me, in order that I would be able to

help their family memebers locate their bodies, and the like,etc.

But, I try to pray their spirits instead cross to the othe side,

instead. This does uplift me spiritually.

 

To make a longer story shorter, I feel, this old cord has been

played for too long now, and I wonder, where this is leading, too!

Maybe, my soul is restless to come back into a proper form (Yeshe

Gompa), but feel I am not to repeat Tibetan experiences in this

life, again, on the other hand, would inquier as to properly convert

to HINDUISM? However, my Hindu friends have told me in the past at

Maharshi University, in Fairfield, Iowa, that I am more HINDU than

Chriatian. Nevertheless, I have experiences that are not the average

expereinces individual's recognize. This is why I feel that HINDUISM

brings out my [soul scripting] in profound clarity for me, that the

language, Sanskrit, really sparks my soul, and gives me increasingly

clarity,to my nervous system; to mind, body, and spirit.

 

But, instead of staying on track with Sanskrita and Chandi Path, I

have to spend that time on Christian Theology. I know that these

are huge life's questions (karma) that I just felt that I needed to

wrtie to somebody who knows. What blessing you have, I would be so

greatful to understand.

 

 

So, before,the sequence comes to serve in order to be blessed,

Secondly, how to come back to reading the Chandi Path, that gives me

more gentleness when repeated?

 

My love in recitation of Holy mantras is the very core of my nature

and my being. But, feel stuck, and even wonder, when I do the

Chandi Path, especially, what Srini recommended, which I sense is

very correct from me; Sapta Sloka Durga, Devya Kavacam that even

doing Navarna Vidhih have had tremendous effects on me. So, much

that I had to stop. I was razing negative energies within, or at

least, I felt depressed and then angry, but knew right away that I

was being "healed", as it were of these old hidden energies.

 

I don't wish to take to much of your time, so on this note, PRANAMS<

 

>Restless in Seattle<

Would it ok to have you respond to this, thank you!

 

Edward

 

Most gracious SatGuruji's; Jai Mataji, Jai Swamiji...HARE RAM

VITTALA PANDURANGA, JAI

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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