to srini about Sadhana Panchakam Verse 4 (and Maa's movie)

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srini posted:

 

Verse 4 (Sadhana Panchakam) contains the following instructions:

 

1. Take the cure for the illness of uncontrolled desire

2. Serve your doctor as a beggar would serve a Lord

3. Don't seek the associations of pleasure seekers or self-centered

individuals.

4. Remain contented with whatever you receive in a divine union, that

which God has consented to give.

5. Remain the same while undergoing all the pairs of opposites like

hot and cold, pleasure and pain, and don't give expression to

worthless speech

6. Carry yourself as a great renunciate.

7. Don't look to get grace from other men

8. Don't seek to obtain something from men.

 

 

 

Dear srini and all ~ I was composing a somewhat lengthy response to this; at

the same time I was waiting for the Shree Maa website to load, because when

the note about the new movie on the homepage was posted, I was never able to

get it to load that day.

 

All my response was about my family, which, in truth, I feel are family in

name only, and my emotions get tied in knots everytime there is a holiday or a

birthday or some other occasion that prompts me to feel I need to send a

present or make a phone call. These are people with whom I have no other contact.

I reach out to them; I seem to never be able to give up hope. But they are

"not home" or are "in bed," and no one calls me back. I am finding it

increasingly difficult to, two or three times a year, participate in the pretence of

something that isn't real. So far, I have continued to do so as a part of

"behaving well," which my therapist has encouraged. But now father's day is

coming; I am feeling physically sick, believing I must send something and, once

again, I am putting off dealing with it.

 

I was writing about how all of this Verse seemed to be an answer to my

quandry, to the pain

I continuously feel about this, and to letting go ... and then I hear the

sweet voice of the movie narrator come on ... oh! the page had loaded! I

immediately went and watched, spellbound, seeing my Mother come out of Her sweet

home, hearing about Her day, watching the walk to the temple, and seeing and

hearing about the Mother's Day celebration. My pain left me; the knot in my

stomach untied itself, and I just watched and listened with tears of joy in my

eyes.

 

Maa, and Swamiji, are perfect examples of perfect Love. So I'm going to

strive on achieving what this Verse talks about because I think Maa and Swamiji

are the "doctors," and I am going to watch the movie as often as I feel a need

to come back to the Center, knowing that how Maa goes about Her day is the

perfect answer to the dilemma of the seemingly never-ending cycle of sorrow I

have with my birth family. It is difficult to be in a negative emotional state

if one is worshiping God/dess; the EMS sankalpa has been teaching me that,

and I am so grateful to Maa for giving us this sankalpa.

 

Many thanks to Janardan and all who had any part in making the gift of this

movie available.

Even if I cannot visit the Devi Mandir, I can spend some time with Shree Maa

and Swamiji every day ... sadhana is great, yet seeing what Shree Maa and

Swamiji do and sitting quietly with Maa as the movie narrates about Her

meditation, this brings to me the heart of sadhana, and the solution to my family

problems as well as any other problem that may beset me.

In the peace of Maa's devotion, how can I feel anything but gratitude and

peace in my own heart. Jai Maa ~ Linda