Guest guest Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 Hi, I notice myself being on the decline now. One month ago went to a camp (here in Sweden) it was great with kundalini yoga, sweat-lodges, great people and more. I did mungbean and rice for all dinners. Now I haven't done any yoga since (ok, I've just come over the surface and started two short meditations yesterday and I managed to write this). And more I've eaten a lot, too much. Big meals and in between handfuls of nuts of all kinds, dates, figs. I'd kept it vegetarian and to quite high degree biodynamic though. The result is swollen stomach, a feeling of always being full - but needing to eat anyway(!?), non-decision, crashing asleep, over-sleeping, restlessness, sugar craving, aching stomach at any physical exercise (I couldn't make yoga for long), and emotionally dull - like a lid placed over me. I am only happy when it's getting time to eat, like in the morning, or the last hour at work. Thinking about it I never feel I've eaten enough, I could always eat more (like now, over the last hours I have probably eaten more then you have during this entire day but I really feel I could eat like a pizza - too bad they're closed, it's bedtime here...). I feel like a 'foodaholic'. Does anyone knows what has happened? Trying to repress rising emotions would be my guess if I'd seen this in others. Do I not dare to let the emotions and perhaps pain out? What can I do to get over this? Isn't eating just to get energy and nutrition enough for a couple of hours or what? Any yoga exercises to do? I also gotten into some internet addiction, and I've really turned introverted (I can't move too much since I need to make sure there are plenty of food) plus short attention span. A real sunshine that is. Please help out here. Thanks. Janne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2006 Report Share Posted June 30, 2006 Dearest Janne: Richard Alpert (Guru Dass), a famous spiritual leader in the US, tells the story of going to India. He found himself in the presence of a saint. The previous day he had taken some time looking at the stars thinking of his mother. The first thing the saint told him was the time he took looking at the stars and thinking of his mother. He sensed that this saint knew everything about him. There are things he did not want anyone to know. He was ashamed of some of the things he did in his life. And yet this saint loved him anyway in the purest sense. This changed his life. A lot of forgiveness happens with love. I would like you to ask yourself one question: What are you really craving for? If you could have anything you want that is truly satisfying what would it be? Blessings, Awtar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2006 Report Share Posted June 30, 2006 > > I would like you to ask yourself one question: What are you really craving > for? If you could have anything you want that is truly satisfying what would > it be? > Thanks for reply. I will try to answer from my heart. I would want to rest, I would want to be able to rest amongst others. Dwell. Not escape into introvercy, and the semi-rest there, just because I can't rest when others are near. I love the feeling like at the music night at the Solstice, were everybody sleeps together, I did a similar thing last month. The tribe gathered for sleep in the cave. Everybody scattered during the day, but everybody ending up in the same place at night. I can go there before the others if I'm tired, knowing that during my sleep I will be joined by all. Resting, knowing I belong and am accepted by my tribe. That is what spontaneoulsy came up, does it make sense? /J Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2006 Report Share Posted July 1, 2006 Dear J: Your story touches my heart. You describe how I once felt, though I chose another substance to cloak my pain. I will defer to deeper knowledge of others in this group for advice. I will tell you that you are accepted and you do belong. Your tribe is here and in your heart and in your infinite spirit. Guru Gopal Kaur On Friday, June 30, 2006, at 03:45 PM, janerik_z wrote: >> >> I would like you to ask yourself one question: What are you really > craving >> for? If you could have anything you want that is truly satisfying > what would >> it be? >> > > Thanks for reply. I will try to answer from my heart. > > I would want to rest, I would want to be able to rest amongst others. > Dwell. Not escape into introvercy, and the semi-rest there, just > because I can't rest when others are near. I love the feeling like at > the music night at the Solstice, were everybody sleeps together, I did > a similar thing last month. The tribe gathered for sleep in the cave. > Everybody scattered during the day, but everybody ending up in the > same place at night. I can go there before the others if I'm tired, > knowing that during my sleep I will be joined by all. Resting, knowing > I belong and am accepted by my tribe. > > That is what spontaneoulsy came up, does it make sense? > > /J > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2006 Report Share Posted July 1, 2006 Dear Janne: "Resting, knowing I belong and am accepted by my tribe [. . .] Does it make sense?" What do you need to rest from? Is it resting in the knowing that you belong? The feeling of belonging. When you feel that you belong, do you stop needing to eat? Blessings, Awtar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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