Guest guest Posted July 21, 2006 Report Share Posted July 21, 2006 Dear friends, I am finally out of the haze I have been floating in since I saw Amma in Boston on Tuesday. I am just now able to put into words my experience. I traveled there with my husband Bill, my friend Kate, my Mother Honey and our friend Pat. As Bill is wheelchair bound, we were placed in priority seating, right by the door where Mother was to enter. The people were preparing for her entry by placing a sheet of silk along the path to the stage, and were having difficulty setting it down smoothly and keeping people from walking on it. So I got up and offered to help them. This brought my friend and I closer to the door when Amma's car pulled up to drop her off. I saw her exit the car and was surprised by her small stature. I have never seen Amma walk to the stage before as she was always surrounded by tall crowds! She is so tiny! We all knelt in reverence and so that the audience could see her enter. Many pushed forward to reach out to touch her hand and sari, but I stayed on my knees, and had all I could do to watch her. Her beautiful eyes! Her lovely smile, and her tiny form.....It was as if this was the first time I was seeing her. It was a few hours before we got to see her for darshan. I had brought some malas I had made for her so that they could be sold during the tour. My husband saw her first. She stood and hugged him, praying over him, and stroked his arms and legs, and gave him an apple, a chocolate kiss, vibhutti, and flower petals. As he moved away it was my turn. I placed the malas in her lap and said "I made these for you Amma" She brushed them off her lap and took me in her arms and it was as if time slowed way down. The first two darshan I had with Amma were so different. The first time I was so nervous and really didn't know what to expect. After it was over, I felt I missed the whole experience! It was as if I left my body and came back in after it was finished. The next year I spent a good amount of time telling myself I would LOOK at her and stay present for the darshan with Amma, and it worked - the second time was lovely! She looked at me and it was as if she remembered me! She smiled and clapped her hands and gave me a wonderful hug, praying over me and giving me a flower petal and an apple. But it was all very quick. This time was so different. As my face touched her body, I could feel my lips touch the fabric of her sari. I listened to her chant over my head and let her rock me like a baby. I whispered into her breast that I loved her and that I thanked her for being in my life. I breathed her scent, which was so wonderful. She kissed my cheek...it all seemed like slow motion....Then I felt her release me and other hands tugging at my arm to move me away. Suddenly Amma grabbed me again and back down I went, against her again, to kiss her and breathe her scent again. I am thinking it was forever, and my Mother who was behind me, said she took a long time with me, but I lost all track of time. I can still feel it, all of it. I was able to see my husband, my Mother and our friends receive her darshan, and then later, my youngest daughter had her first darshan with Amma. I was, and still feel, so happy. I don't know how I drove everybody home safely that afternoon. It really didn't sink in for me until I laid down that night and relived the Blessing I received. I am more in love with Amma than I have ever been before. I will spend this year waiting for her to come back again, and work to become a better person, more of what she wants us all to be. Thank you for reading this and letting me share this with someone who would understand.... In Amma's Service....mare Moon*&*Stars*Aviary*&*Studio www.maresdovescavies.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 21, 2006 Report Share Posted July 21, 2006 Om Namah Shivaya, This is beautiful & touching. Thank you for sharing your precious experience. This is very well said ... "I will spend this year waiting for her to come back again, and work to become a better person, more of what she wants us all to be. Get on board. You're invited to try the new Mail Beta. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 24, 2006 Report Share Posted July 24, 2006 How beautiful and precious, Mare! May She continue to bring you closer and closer! Much Love, Sanatani Mary Ellen Robinson <mare3 (AT) juno (DOT) com> wrote: Dear friends, I am finally out of the haze I have been floating in since I saw Amma in Boston on Tuesday. I am just now able to put into words my experience. I traveled there with my husband Bill, my friend Kate, my Mother Honey and our friend Pat. As Bill is wheelchair bound, we were placed in priority seating, right by the door where Mother was to enter. The people were preparing for her entry by placing a sheet of silk along the path to the stage, and were having difficulty setting it down smoothly and keeping people from walking on it. So I got up and offered to help them. This brought my friend and I closer to the door when Amma's car pulled up to drop her off. I saw her exit the car and was surprised by her small stature. I have never seen Amma walk to the stage before as she was always surrounded by tall crowds! She is so tiny! We all knelt in reverence and so that the audience could see her enter. Many pushed forward to reach out to touch her hand and sari, but I stayed on my knees, and had all I could do to watch her. Her beautiful eyes! Her lovely smile, and her tiny form.....It was as if this was the first time I was seeing her. It was a few hours before we got to see her for darshan. I had brought some malas I had made for her so that they could be sold during the tour. My husband saw her first. She stood and hugged him, praying over him, and stroked his arms and legs, and gave him an apple, a chocolate kiss, vibhutti, and flower petals. As he moved away it was my turn. I placed the malas in her lap and said "I made these for you Amma" She brushed them off her lap and took me in her arms and it was as if time slowed way down. The first two darshan I had with Amma were so different. The first time I was so nervous and really didn't know what to expect. After it was over, I felt I missed the whole experience! It was as if I left my body and came back in after it was finished. The next year I spent a good amount of time telling myself I would LOOK at her and stay present for the darshan with Amma, and it worked - the second time was lovely! She looked at me and it was as if she remembered me! She smiled and clapped her hands and gave me a wonderful hug, praying over me and giving me a flower petal and an apple. But it was all very quick. This time was so different. As my face touched her body, I could feel my lips touch the fabric of her sari. I listened to her chant over my head and let her rock me like a baby. I whispered into her breast that I loved her and that I thanked her for being in my life. I breathed her scent, which was so wonderful. She kissed my cheek...it all seemed like slow motion....Then I felt her release me and other hands tugging at my arm to move me away. Suddenly Amma grabbed me again and back down I went, against her again, to kiss her and breathe her scent again. I am thinking it was forever, and my Mother who was behind me, said she took a long time with me, but I lost all track of time. I can still feel it, all of it. I was able to see my husband, my Mother and our friends receive her darshan, and then later, my youngest daughter had her first darshan with Amma. I was, and still feel, so happy. I don't know how I drove everybody home safely that afternoon. It really didn't sink in for me until I laid down that night and relived the Blessing I received. I am more in love with Amma than I have ever been before. I will spend this year waiting for her to come back again, and work to become a better person, more of what she wants us all to be. Thank you for reading this and letting me share this with someone who would understand.... In Amma's Service....mare Moon*&*Stars*Aviary*&*Studio www.maresdovescavies.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 24, 2006 Report Share Posted July 24, 2006 Thank you Sanatani and Sweta.... It is so nice to be able to talk to people who understand all these intense feelings...In Amma's Service, mare On Mon, 24 Jul 2006 09:29:03 -0700 (PDT) sanatani urban <sanatani (AT) verizon (DOT) net> writes: > How beautiful and precious, Mare! May She continue to bring you > closer and closer! > > Much Love, > Sanatani > > Mary Ellen Robinson <mare3 (AT) juno (DOT) com> wrote: > Dear friends, > I am finally out of the haze I have been floating in since I saw > Amma in Boston on Tuesday. I am just now able to put into words my > experience. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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