Digest Number 1275

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C. P. Kumar Posted (Sri Ramakrishna quote):

 

One cannot be spiritual as long as one feels

shame, hatred, or fear.

 

 

Dear Kumar ~ this hit me quite hard this morning. Despite all my efforts, by

this deflinition, I am not spiritual. I am filled with shame and fear, and I

have hatred toward myself. I remember Swamiji telling me that nothing was

worth sacrificing my peace of mind. But the person I live with is very abusive,

and has become increasingly more so over the time we have been together. I

grew up this way also, and even though I am an adult, I feel much the same way

a I did then ... it is all my fault (and actually my partner will blame me

for his abusive outbursts), and I am a very similar situation because of my

illness and inability to work. I feel as powerless to do anything as I did then.

I have lost my mother. And even though my relationship is abusive, it is

hurting me to know that it too is lost.