To Henny about relationships

[Guest guest]

Henny wrote:

 

 

i can totally relate to what you said below about your husband.

though my wife doesn't really do sadhana, Her natural disposition is

also very saintly. if we had a contest of demonstrated spirituality

measured by our everyday lives i would definitely come in a distant

second. i think sometimes trying to act spiritual can be a

hindrance on the path. being spiritual happens naturally thru the

changes created by sadhana and simply by The Divine Mother's Grace...

 

i searched for this archived post of Muktimaa's below, which helped

me great deal with things i was struggling with at that time...

Dear Henny ~ thank you so much for all your good thoughts. When I read the

post, I immediately remembered Muktimaa's previously posting the story about

Anandamayi Ma. What struck me then, as this time also, was the simple practice

to, one day a month, regard everyone who comes through your door (or by

extension, I believe, whomever you see or interact with) as God. I will have to

keep this and put it on my fridge, so I can make it a sankalpa.

 

It was also very telling re-reading your post, which must have been in

response to something I had written previously. I am striving to be patient, kind,

compassionate, etc., but I fear that this relationship is coming to an end.

I will be very surprised if it doesn't. It isn't just the computer thing;

there is so much more that I haven't talked about and would prefer to keep

private. Bad timing, considering I just lost my mother, but there is nobody home,

hence, no relationship. Since I have just bought a house (when my real desire

is to go back to Maryland so I can be near my daughter, and in a place where

there are satsangs and Hindu Temples), I'm not sure what I will do. Not sure

I can afford to live in that area anymore.

 

Recently, I had a terrible night, after being verbally attacked. The next

night, the same thing happened (different reason), but I felt totally

different. I felt calm, at peace; I had no reaction, just a feeling that this was the

end, and that I was ready to acknowledge that. God may have other plans for

me. On Monday we go see our therapist ... however, Swamiji and Shree Maa have

taught me about respect, and respect goes both ways. One can respect the

dickins out of another person, but if that person has no mutual respect and no

sense of common kindness ... sometimes it is just needed to step away from the

negativity in order to grow.

I'm very grateful to be on the prayer list because I need all the prayers I

can get right now.

 

Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda

[Guest guest]

Henny wrote:

 

All that energy of your partner can be channeled to spiritual

pursuits, little by little or instantly. With his dedication, he

can become enlightened in this lifetime, if he channels it to

sadhana. Or at least to selfless seva..

 

 

 

Dear Henny ~ after 6 years, I have accepted the truth; this is not going to

happen, not even little by little. In fact, the negative behavior (which, as I

mentioned before, goes way beyond just the computer addiction) has gotten

worse over time. Sometimes you can make friends with the dragon, and sometimes

you have to pry it's mouth open and step out into the light again. I pray to

Shiva for the strength. One thing I have learned in all this is why it was so

hard for my mother to leave my father, despite the terrible abuse. I wish I

could tell her.

In honor of my mother, Patricia Mackey.

 

Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda

 

P.S. Also, one thing I have learned, after nearly a lifetime, is that it is

only when you let go of something that a space is made for something new to

enter. What this newness may be, I can't say. I leave that up to the

Transforming God, Shiva.