ETERNAL GURU - 3

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Om Namo Bhagavate Sri Ramanaya !

 

Inscrutible are the ways of destiny. Life is a cryptic combination of

fate and free will. Bhagavan would say even a Gnani should work out

the "prarabtha karma" - the accrued and accumulated usufructs of one's

deed in the past births. However, our eternal guru is with us to help

us know the answer if we seek so from Him. Any sorts of doubts or any

number of experiences - better or bitter can thus be clarified.

 

One day when I was searching for some important document at home, my

wife, not understanding my serious mood, pulled my legs through some

playful casual comments. Provoked by that unintentioal deed of my

wife, I pushed her forcibly in wrath that she dashed against the wall

nearby. It must have been so paining to her that tears appeared on her

eyes.

 

Soon I realized my mistake and became very much sad that I had never

behaved like that with her before. Moreover, as as a spiritual

aspirant who is doing Atma Vichara and talking tall about killing the

ego and the like, I felt ashamed and could not find a valid reason or

justification for my action.

 

On such occasions, it is my habit to take out some Ramana literature

and turn a page to look for Bhagavan's words of solace. That day also I

took a book and turned a page. There appeared a question of Swamy

Natanananda to Bhagavan "Swamy some times I become so angry that I

could not control it but realize only after everything happened. As a

spiritual person I am not supposed to behave this way?" Bhagavan

replies "nothing under the sun wants to get killed so easily -

similarly the ego which you want to kill becomes very powerful at

times - don't worry itis a good sign that it would be killed soon" - I

showed this to my wife also who silently smiled like our Guru !!

 

ETERNAL GURU answers every one of us like this.

 

Ramanaarpanam.

 

Ganesh Ramachandran