To Kali about need help with deities

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Kali wrote:

 

My Kali and Ganesha deities were stolen by my roommate today.

Any recommendations on what to do?

 

I am not sure how to replace them and am having

severe separation issues and fear of being punished

by them.

 

 

 

Dear Kali ~ I can only imagine how your heart must ache, both from the loss

of the deities and from a loss of trust (perhaps) in knowing it was your

roommate who took them. I wonder if the roommate is yearning toward a

relationship, such as you have, with these deities, or if perhaps she is against your

practices.

 

Can you simply ask her to give them back to you? I know from personal

experience, that this may or may not work. I can understand the separation issues

well as I experienced that when my then puppie, Cassie, chewed up my Ammachi

doll (the doll lost a leg, an arm, and a lot of hair). I was devastated, but I

realized it wasn't the puppy's fault. What difference to Cassie between a

soft fabric "bone" and a soft fabric doll? I made the mistake of leaving the

doll where Cassie had easy access to it.

 

I am not saying, please, please understand this, that your situation is

analogous, except in the sense of the grief I felt and that you seem to also

feel. But why would you fear being punished? You have shown only the sweetest and

most devoted respect, as I have read, toward your deities, even though, in

posts, it appears more general and one has no way of knowing if a person is

also speaking of personal murtis. I feel certain Maa would not want you to feel

this fear.

 

It is a very sad thing, in what it seems to indicate of your roommate, that

(s)he would do this taking of something that is very sacred to you. If you

don't feel you can ask her to give them back, are you able to find a way to

forgive her? The murtis are in your heart, Kali. Anyone who has a heart and has

read your posts knows this. Carry them there for now. Murtis can be replaced;

they can even be made. Shree Maa, as I have understood it, has made many or

the murtis that are at the Devi Mandir. There is a special process for this,

and I believe Muktimaa may have a website link she can send you where it

explains this process.

 

Although, I know very well that just replacing a murti with whom you've had

a sacred relationship, is easier said than done. After my Ammachi doll was

chewed up, my mother sent me her Amma doll. Oddly enough, I didn't really want

her doll. I wanted my doll, so there was definitely a relationship that had

been developed with my own doll. Oddly enough, now, about six months later and

after my mother's death, I feel that I do want to unpack both of my Amma

dolls. I did not throw away the chewed up doll. Doug made her an artificial leg

and put what was left of her arm in a sling. I felt she was a reminder to me

of my own illness and limitations as well as a reminder to accept those of

others.

 

I don't want to keep blathering on, but please have no fear. Write to Maa

and Swamiji of this. Ask them the questions you have asked here. When I have

written to them, whatever the question, including regarding the death of my

mother with many unresolved issues, I have always received Love with the answer,

a healing balm to my heart and spirit. Be gentle with yourself, Kali.

 

Jai Kali , Jai Ganesha , Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda