Guest guest Posted September 18, 2006 Report Share Posted September 18, 2006 There are 4 medicines involved in my situation, and each one does a different part. Lithium quiets the whirlwind of vocal sounds or thoughts in the mind. It gets rid of it completely actually, when your Lithium level is up enough. This is the one I¹m upping right now, and I¹m getting more needed ³quiet² in the mind. Withtout it, my head becomes home to constant overlapping thoughts by the hundreds, it¹s too much, it¹s unbearable, and it starts to go negative and dark, and you really go down. So Lithium is needed. Lexapro ups the serotonin, a needed chemical in the brain for thinking...without it, you get very antsy, reclusive, tired, sad, angry, basically depressed. Klonopin for times when somehow the panic sets in anyway. Total panic is so devastating an emotion that you need something just for it. All of the above, living with the original problems and these solutions, is very troublesome in itself. The loss of dignity, the shame, the feeling that you¹re ³messed up² is very heavy...especially the thought that you are mentally deficient in some way, is very shaming and damning. So, to feel better, you or I, smoke pot, which makes you feel more comfortable and happy overall. It does not however do what the above drugs do. It is not a replacement. It¹s different and unique on it¹s own...it brings euphoria mostly, so a sense of real happiness is possible. >From my experiences with people, watching out through my chemical eyes, remembering my past before all this, and watching people today who are totally drug free of all types, and those who are wealthy verse not, and so many things, I can see that people ³feel² very differently...so it¹s an area you are either blessed in or not. Some are very sensitive, and in a dark way, some in a light way, some are lighthearted no matter what, and rarely experience fear, and others feel fear always. I¹m not surprised, with my chart, that I have problems, including right now. I do after all have a moon which is with ketu and aspected by sani and in sani¹s sign. That¹s enough, but add the navamsa and it¹s worse. Interesting to see what this Sani in Leo transit will do...it opposes my saturnized moon. In talking to me, people say...²Give up pot². They say it so easily. Some of us, me being one, when we do that, we feel withdrawal feelings you would not believe...and me, with my condition, the antsy feelings start the bi polar stuff going ... It busts through the lithium layer and starts it all up anyway. It¹s awful. I hate having to take all these things. I hate what pot does. I hate life without it equally or more. I am made, born, to feel shitty. It¹s in my chart, and I do. I always did. If you look at the pattern of renunciation in my life, for the sake of God and religion, it¹s pretty amazing...it was going on early and consistent.... It¹s always been hard for me to have basic peace of mind. I was very sharp as a kid, and was seeing spiritual facts very early. The reality set in very early. Herb has been one of my medicines. I think for some it is such. But I wish I was peaceful, sharp, clear, simple, working, no problems, certainly no brain problems, but I have to see that this is one place where I wasn¹t totally blessed in life. I¹ve been blessed in many ways however. This is one place where not so. >From my angle of vision, because of the above stated reasons, sometimes I have to chuckle at some people¹s perceptions of the kinds of meds I take and mostly about ganja, pot, herb, marijuana. The fear, and the misperceptions, and the attitudes. Richard Edward Wurst Formerly known as Das Goravani das (AT) goravani (DOT) com Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 3 (JS3) For Hindu Astrology Software and Lessons (Jyotish) Now on DVD! For Original Celtic Art Paintings http://www.goravani.com/art.html or Please use email if at all possible Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2006 Report Share Posted September 18, 2006 Everything takes up "space"...where there appears to be a lack...something will begin to fill in the emptiness. I honestly don't believe that you are messed up. I just believe that we are "different" from many people...and experience things in different ways. It's neither good nor bad...just "different". I've talked with God...and I honestly believe that he loves us both....just as we are. He has never appeared to me to be anti-drug, anti-this or anti-that...He is just all about love. Love yourself more & don't worry about what...everyone else...thinks. To God, to me...and probably to many people...you are "special" in your own way. {{Hugs}} Das Goravani <das (AT) goravani (DOT) com> wrote: There are 4 medicines involved in my situation, and each one does a different part. Lithium quiets the whirlwind of vocal sounds or thoughts in the mind. It gets rid of it completely actually, when your Lithium level is up enough. This is the one I¹m upping right now, and I¹m getting more needed ³quiet² in the mind. Withtout it, my head becomes home to constant overlapping thoughts by the hundreds, it¹s too much, it¹s unbearable, and it starts to go negative and dark, and you really go down. So Lithium is needed. Lexapro ups the serotonin, a needed chemical in the brain for thinking...without it, you get very antsy, reclusive, tired, sad, angry, basically depressed. Klonopin for times when somehow the panic sets in anyway. Total panic is so devastating an emotion that you need something just for it. All of the above, living with the original problems and these solutions, is very troublesome in itself. The loss of dignity, the shame, the feeling that you¹re ³messed up² is very heavy...especially the thought that you are mentally deficient in some way, is very shaming and damning. So, to feel better, you or I, smoke pot, which makes you feel more comfortable and happy overall. It does not however do what the above drugs do. It is not a replacement. It¹s different and unique on it¹s own...it brings euphoria mostly, so a sense of real happiness is possible. >From my experiences with people, watching out through my chemical eyes, remembering my past before all this, and watching people today who are totally drug free of all types, and those who are wealthy verse not, and so many things, I can see that people ³feel² very differently...so it¹s an area you are either blessed in or not. Some are very sensitive, and in a dark way, some in a light way, some are lighthearted no matter what, and rarely experience fear, and others feel fear always. I¹m not surprised, with my chart, that I have problems, including right now. I do after all have a moon which is with ketu and aspected by sani and in sani¹s sign. That¹s enough, but add the navamsa and it¹s worse. Interesting to see what this Sani in Leo transit will do...it opposes my saturnized moon. In talking to me, people say...²Give up pot². They say it so easily. Some of us, me being one, when we do that, we feel withdrawal feelings you would not believe...and me, with my condition, the antsy feelings start the bi polar stuff going ... It busts through the lithium layer and starts it all up anyway. It¹s awful. I hate having to take all these things. I hate what pot does. I hate life without it equally or more. I am made, born, to feel shitty. It¹s in my chart, and I do. I always did.. If you look at the pattern of renunciation in my life, for the sake of God and religion, it¹s pretty amazing...it was going on early and consistent.... It¹s always been hard for me to have basic peace of mind. I was very sharp as a kid, and was seeing spiritual facts very early. The reality set in very early. Herb has been one of my medicines. I think for some it is such. But I wish I was peaceful, sharp, clear, simple, working, no problems, certainly no brain problems, but I have to see that this is one place where I wasn¹t totally blessed in life. I¹ve been blessed in many ways however. This is one place where not so. >From my angle of vision, because of the above stated reasons, sometimes I have to chuckle at some people¹s perceptions of the kinds of meds I take and mostly about ganja, pot, herb, marijuana. The fear, and the misperceptions, and the attitudes. Richard Edward Wurst Formerly known as Das Goravani das (AT) goravani (DOT) com Secure online ordering of Goravani Jyotish 2.5 and Jyotish Studio 3 (JS3) For Hindu Astrology Software and Lessons (Jyotish) Now on DVD! For Original Celtic Art Paintings http://www.goravani.com/art.html or Please use email if at all possible Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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