Guest guest Posted November 9, 2006 Report Share Posted November 9, 2006 Namaste Day 3 started off well. My focus was strong and my wife and I flowed easily. As the day passed, I felt fatigued and then an old pattern started to emerge, and it was very difficult to "stop, look, and listen". There was work to do, so I continued to push forward. After several hours of struggling, and becoming more tired, I lost control. The only "win" was staying quiet onto myself. But as I "watched" myself, I "saw" the effects that my shaky vibration was having on the environment, and I gave up. I went to take a nap. That was all I could do. After the nap, we went to the Temple for Swami's evening class. But several lessons learned: eat more frequently, leave the office when getting grumpy, and get fresh air. When tired, take rest. The only way any deep patterns change is by Maa's Grace. I have known Her for 9 years now, and I have experienced changes that I would have though impossible. So, I know there is "light at the end of the tunnel". Also, as Maa and Swami have taught, by performing the pujas and mantras and other spiritual practices, as they are taught in the scriptures, the negative impulses can be rooted out and "sent to heaven", as the Great Ego when Divine Mother slays him in the Chandi. In my relationship with Maa, She has clearly stated that She can intervene when She is asked and when one is performing the sadhana as taught thru our tradition. So, to strengthen both my relationship with Her, and to increase the strength of the sadhana, I always begin each puja, etc, by asking Maa and Swami to take over. To perform the sadhana thru me, for them to be the doer, and not me. I think this is the way to begin and end each day too. Ultimately, we not only want to emulate the Guru, but we want to become them. Our limited ego "sent to heaven", and only Maa and Swami left inside our hearts. Jai Maa Jai Swami Love Vishweshwar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 10, 2006 Report Share Posted November 10, 2006 Vish. said: The only way any deep patterns change is by Maa's Grace. I believe this too. Thank God for this grace, otherwise we would be without hope, I think. This is not to say that the struggle is unimportant. I think it is the struggle with these patterns that is in itself a tapasya, and invites the grace that finally removes our negativity. May I have the strength and intensity of desire to persevere... Jai Maa! Chris , "inspectionconnection108" <inspectionconnection108 wrote: > > Namaste > > Day 3 started off well. My focus was strong and my wife and I flowed > easily. As the day passed, I felt fatigued and then an old pattern > started to emerge, and it was very difficult to "stop, look, and > listen". There was work to do, so I continued to push forward. After > several hours of struggling, and becoming more tired, I lost control. > The only "win" was staying quiet onto myself. But as I "watched" > myself, I "saw" the effects that my shaky vibration was having on the > environment, and I gave up. > I went to take a nap. That was all I could do. > After the nap, we went to the Temple for Swami's evening class. > But several lessons learned: eat more frequently, leave the office > when getting grumpy, and get fresh air. When tired, take rest. > > The only way any deep patterns change is by Maa's Grace. I have known > Her for 9 years now, and I have experienced changes that I would have > though impossible. > So, I know there is "light at the end of the tunnel". Also, as Maa > and Swami have taught, by performing the pujas and mantras and other > spiritual practices, as they are taught in the scriptures, the > negative impulses can be rooted out and "sent to heaven", as the Great > Ego when Divine Mother slays him in the Chandi. > In my relationship with Maa, She has clearly stated that She can > intervene when She is asked and when one is performing the sadhana > as taught thru our tradition. > So, to strengthen both my relationship with Her, and to increase the > strength of the sadhana, I always begin each puja, etc, by asking Maa > and Swami to take over. To perform the sadhana thru me, for them to > be the doer, and not me. > I think this is the way to begin and end each day too. Ultimately, we > not only want to emulate the Guru, but we want to become them. Our > limited ego "sent to heaven", and only Maa and Swami left inside our > hearts. > > Jai Maa Jai Swami > > Love > > Vishweshwar > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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