Healing from abuse

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Someone in the healing dialogs said "do spiritual practice you are comfortable with" - this question to me...I have been suffering in silence because I judge myself to be too lowly to pray for anyone, let alone myself...result of childhood abuse probably...here is my question, any insights for this daughter?

Does anyone know why one might be so afraid of spiritual practices. I have a lovely altar and my prayer book waiting for me to pick it up each morning, but all I can manage is my morning prayer: "Amma, let me be your eyes, your ears, your hands, your voice and your heart today, Thy will - not mine- be done."

I want to chant all the names and light the lamp and sit and meditate, but terror comes up.

Help...

 

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi

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Dear Supriti Omenka,

 

Imagine yourself taking Amma's hand, sit for a moment

like this before you begin. The Divine Mother is here

to help us with all of our fears. You can't do it

wrong, it is impossible to pray the wrong way!!!!

 

In a way, you could look at the practice of praying

for others, self, or the world as Seva, and a place to

let the "i" go...you can do it from a place of

detachment.

 

Or, you could do it with incredible passion and

emotion, and think of a song, or a butterfly or a

beautiful flower, whatever brings a smile to your

face.

 

I think I heard you say you live in MI. I will be

going to MI for the first time, and the retreat there.

I would be happy to meet with you at some point during

that time to pray, do some of the 1000 names, or

anything like this that would help with this step.

Feel free to contact me off list and we can talk about

a meeting time.

 

Love and Peace,

Stacee

 

--- Omenka Supriti Nnadi <oomenka > wrote:

 

> Someone in the healing dialogs said "do spiritual

> practice you are comfortable with" - this question

> to me...I have been suffering in silence because I

> judge myself to be too lowly to pray for anyone, let

> alone myself...result of childhood abuse

> probably...here is my question, any insights for

> this daughter?

>

> Does anyone know why one might be so afraid of

> spiritual practices.