Tat Tvam Asi

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When time stops

and the world fades away

The senses collapse

and the ropes begin to fray

The heat of knowing

gradually growing

burns through the bonds

that lead me astray

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As the waves flow through me

one after one

Even though I'd thought one goes blind

staring into the sun

All words escape me

and shrinks the thinking mind

As the life-force rises

on its ecstatic run

The sun shines brightly

and my blind eyes see

finally that I am

That Eternity

I argue and fight

and flame and flaunt my might

but when I look deep

deep inside the chasm

there is but emptiness

as I deal with it's dying spasm

I am dying yet I live

because I'm not whom I see

finally I am -- That Eternity

But it took a long time

Took far too long to break free

Break free of those bonds

that were biting into me

Immersed in that stillness

the emptiness of bliss

Breaking through that miasma of myself

but a modicum of peace

The dams finally gave out

and like a raging stream

the light suddenly rushed in

drowning my indignant scream

When I looked up again

where had I gone?

I was but nothing

yet was every one

I was in everything

and everything was part of me

And so I knew I am that Eternity

It wasn't easy

as the observed said --

who is it that's asking me

to mend my ways?

If you are not me

and I am not you

who are you then

and who am I too?

What is this Eternity that you bring forth...

Do you even have a clue?

Then Aham Brahmasmi

and Tat tvam asi

rang silently in my ears

deafening me

It slowly unfolded

to my confounded wit

I had to learn to sit back

and learn when to quit

Trying so frantically

to not try so hard

I am but a paradox

of my dualistic heart

And so when the full becomes empty

and the emptiness fills me

I become that one -- That Eternity.

This was originally posted on the Medha Journal

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