Am I the I?

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AM I THE I?

 

by Swami Sivananda

 

You say, " This is my body " ­ this indicates that you are different

from the body and the body is your instrument. You are holding it

just as you hold a walking stick in your hand.

 

In sleep you exist independent of the walking stick in your hand

(body). In dreams you operate through the astral body without having

any concern for the fleshy body. Through ignorance you have

identified yourself with the physical body and mistaken it for the

real 'I' which is ever­pure, all­pervading, self­existent, self­luminous

and self­contained, which has neither beginning nor end, which is

changeless, beyond time, space and causation, and which exists in the

past the present and the future.

 

Prana (vital force) is not 'I'. It is the effect of rajas (energy).

It is inert. It cannot welcome a man while you are asleep, though it

is flowing. It increases and decreases. You say, " My prana " ­ this

shows you are different from prana. It is your instrument only. You

can control the breath by pranayama. The controller is different from

the controlled (prana). Prana is not 'I'.

 

Mind also is not 'I'. It gropes in darkness. It borrows light from a

higher power. It gets puzzled and confused. During shock and fear it

becomes insentient. It is the effect of satva. It is your instrument.

You say, " my mind " ­ therefore mind is different from 'I'. It is full

of changing ideas. It has a beginning and an end. You can control the

mind and the thoughts ­ the controller is different from the

controlled (mind). It is as much your property, and outside of you,

as your limbs etc., or dress, chair, etc. In sleep there is no mind

yet you wake up with a feeling of continuity of consciousness. There

is no mind in delirium or coma yet 'I' remains. Mind is a bundle of

thoughts and all thoughts are centred around the false egoistic

little 'I'. The root thought of all these thoughts is the 'I' that is

full of vanities.

 

Talking of myself, I always speak of 'I'. The sheaths in which I am

happy, old, black, a sanyasi (monk), etc., are incidents in the

continuity of the 'I'. They are ever changing and varying but the 'I'

remains the same ­ unchanging amid the changing.

 

(Source: http://sivanandaonline.org/html/ )