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Dear M,

 

I read your painful email regarding your personal life situation.

Normally I do not act much as an 'agony uncle' giving out solutions

to life problems but I sympathise your life situation and your being

saved from a recent suicidal attempt.

 

It was just grace of eshwaree that svaed you from becoming a spirit

and roaming about in smashanas! That is the fate of suicidal spirits

to put it gently!

 

Suicide is not an option to life. It is the anti-thesis of life. It

is the domain of your paapapurusha which seeks to attract guilt and

selfpity.

 

I thought you were a sane guy doing good sadhanas for Amba. Let not

an 'insane love' for a girl lead you to do such things at the cost

of your spirituality and your doting parent's feelings.

 

A moment of indiscretion will lead to a fallen stage in spirituality.

 

You have done so many sadhans and yet you have underatken this step.

This speaks of your maturity. I ureg you to visit the temple (as you

are lucky to reside nearby it) and have darshan of Amba

Rajarajeshwari and cry your heart there.

 

She is not your twinflame(maybe not even a karmic partner). So

forget it. The best revenge for things which cannot be obtained is

ignoring it. Else Iam sure everyone here in this forum will have

something to commit suicide for.

 

You say in your email that even for suicide one needs courage. It is

true but that is perverted courage and the machination of the

Ashudhha in you.The pull of the paapa shareera in you to put it

candidly.

 

Defeated love is still a treasure my dear friend, and those who

choose lovelessness have won no victory at all. See all the

celibates around you many lead a loveless life. Many people in our

country are devoted and revere Amba a lot but do they have love my

dear friend?

 

Turn this burning love for an unrequited lover to Amba as your

Mother. She will respond immidieatly and draw you to Her loving arms

and hug you tightly and shower Her unconditional Love to you, never

to leave you...never to desrt you to the dumping grounds of future.

 

Next email from you must be a postive one, for your sake, for your

parent's sake, for Amba's sake... or atleast for the sake of

 

Yours yogically...who cares for you.....

 

Yours yogically and in my arms,

 

Shreeram Balijepalli