Guest guest Posted April 29, 2007 Report Share Posted April 29, 2007 Dear Maniganda! I have not narrated the third part because of orders of Gurunathar. Knowledge belongs to none but experience belongs to yourself!! Eeram vizhundhaale' nilathile' edho thulirkidhu! Nesam vizhunthaale' Manathil odambellaam edho silukkuthu! What more can I say? Depend on your Guru and Mother for everything. Give up everything for them and see the light. Thats all I can say. Iam a very simple and straightforward guy. I don't like vesha. If you have anger express it, if you have love or hatred express. It is in this expression that Divine mother dances as prakruthi I too have anger--what do I do? I shout at Divine mother and cry after the tirade.It is like the mother chiding the child and then crying for the same child. See, here it is reverse, I become Her mother and chide Her!! Haha! Anger reverses everything. Aaruvathu Sinam!!! Dont tell me cockdoodle stories that you cannot control anger. Practice pratipakshabhavana to erase the Karma-vasana. Neverhtless anger is needed a bit to survive in the jagath-maya. Thuravi aaayinum pala keladaa en bhogane' Thunbam pattaaar sila keladaa en manigandane'! When I went to Kamakshi temple. I was with a very distressed lady and whose health condition was not alright. I waited and prayed and despite all that they did not allow us to go inside(break the queue) and go. Then all of a sudden I saw VIP's going into the temple. I asked the watchman where I should pay extra money and go inside to see Kamakshi Amba. He said you will have to pay Rs. 1 Lakh. Can you do that he said.These people are big donors and hence they go directly to the sanctum sanctorum and sit next to Kamakshi Srichakra worshipped by Shankara and do puja(The srichakra was not installed by Adi shankara as many think erroneously, he merely regulated worship procedures for it). I then got very angry and despite pleading about the woman's condition nothing happened. I can wait for ages to see divine mother in the queue, I dont care about myself but a lady who is ill. I then shouted within to Amba" See what is happening here in your Kamakshi peetham. they are not allowing me to see you in this form. Tell your sister to allow me and this lady inside. This lady has kept all her hopes on me. what karma are we suffering? I will take the lady's karma please allow her atleast inside" The watchman lo behold! came and asked the lady to go insdie but prevented me to go inside. And you won't beleieve I suffered the same stomach pains the lady was suffering all the while she was inside. I felt happy for her and had dasrhan of Kamashi Amba from a distance and then came out of the temple. The lady then came out and she again looked distressed. I asked her what happened."when I went inside , I did not have pain. It disappareed miraculously but when Iam out again I have the pain" I then prayed for her cure or transfer me her pain but this time again I did not get any pain but the lady was cured in a few days and eversince visits Kamakshi as she attributes her cure to the temple mahima. I kept quite. I wish to not reveal who that lady is as you know that lady indirectly. ============ Devi is everywhere nanbaa sadly ego too is everywhere. This is the ongoing battle. Maya and amaya Devi and our internal agam try to conquer that...anger is a prathibimba of the aham inside.Keep it as low and a silent snake which just hisses abit as possible. I will never say stupid things like vanquish ego and anger. It sounds very sweet. Many vedanta books written by swamis and Anandaas have it but it is not an easy deal.I can anger any swami who has written conquer ego and anger except for ahandful who really practice conquering anger. One who has no-ego! No one exists like that. Because the merger takes place. The final Moksha. The final bhaya. Mahabhayanivaaranaaya they say in Datta mala mantra. They refer to this Mahabhayam! If anger is completely controlled subtle ego is still left, when ego is completely killed Maniganda is no more!! Ingaye' vittuviduvom! Enna naan solvathu sarithaane? Shreeram Balijepalli Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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