Anger Management

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Dear P,

 

Kama-krodha-lobha-moha-mada-matsarya!

 

These are called the shadripus(6 enemies).

 

Kama=lust

Krodha=Anger

Lobha=Greed

Moha=Attachment

Mada=Arrogance(to be differentiated from Basic Human ego)

Matsarya=Jealousy.

 

These six enemies attack the " Supreme Emperor " (soul) which is inside

2 fragile ramparts called body and mind.

 

Of these 6 enemies two are very very powerful

 

1. Kama=lust--no.1 in Kaliyuga.

2. Krodha=anger--no.2 in Kaliyuga.

 

You were asking how " I can be like you " and be gentle.

 

To be very honest with you, I too had anger great deal when I was a

teen. Even now in my late twenties, I have some anger and frustration

due to work and study pressures.It does come out as sarcasm or

complaining,etc..sometimes but nothing more than that.

 

But it is not as bad as it was when I was a teenager.I used be a very

very angry young man.

 

My blood used to boil when I saw any sort of injustice on TV or on

road or anyone doing it be it my near and dear ones or someone on

road, I used to get really angry with Athiests, I used to puke when

people used to abuse Divine mothers like Kali as something bad, I

used to shout at preists who did not know anything yet claim

superiority because they belonged to a particular community and

caste, I used to barf on castiest and religious(and skin color)

sentiments which was inherent in all of us(and purposely used to go

to churches and mosques and read bible and Koran!..to prove a point),

I used to get angry with Divine mother seeing the injustice rendered

to women in the name of male hypocrisy and domination, I used to

soemtimes curse and be frustrated at my own pathetic state despite my

god-given intelligence and knowledge(I worked part-time as a mechanic

without the knowledge of my parents, now am in Newyork doing

MBA ...Thats a different story), I used to get angry with the state

of brahmins in my community(they are not a forward community

economically), I used to get mad at politicians and police in our

country for their ineptness,I used to get angry with my own family

members for not understanding who Divine Mother was really, I used to

smash my guitar in anger and had to buy two new ones, I used to drive

my bike at top speed never minding the danger to my life....The list

is endless my dear friend.(One thing...

I never drank alcohol or smoked cigarrettes to relieve all this

tension, if I got very very angry, I used to take an axe from a local

woodcutter and vent my anger on a tree...poor tree, later on I felt

guilty of my stupid behavior toward the tree luckily the tree was not

felled by me but given a few cuts on its bark by me...when I learnt

of herb awareness pricnciples, I ran to the tree and cried before it

and assuaged its hurt by my stupid behavior by balming it with

turmeric and stroking it gently and reciting some mantras of

bhagamalini devi...

 

I was so stupid, P!)..Kaliyuga prabhava, I would say.

 

IAM NOT PERFECT.IAM LIKE YOU...OR RATHER WAS LIKE YOU.

 

Till I saw my gurunatha...and saw my dearsie sweetest Mother

Rajarajeshwari Devi.

 

I felt so small...really very small in my anger.

 

The enemy " anger " assailed me " left,right and middle " (to quote

an 'Indianism')and took a heavy toll of my fragile ramparts.

 

After a certain stage, anger becomes an addiction. Your brian gets a

kick out of being angry and aggressive.

 

Assertion is a quality of the soul. Peopel say to me " One should not

be aggresisve but assertive "

 

I would say " You need be even assertive "

 

When you try for something, you mess things up.

 

You are not yourself.

 

Assertion is something which 'happens' because of your soul-state. A

state which happens when you are content with yourself and in your

destiny, when you reply everything on the divine principle.

 

Anger is not strength rather a weakness.Strength comes from truth,

and shines with light its Source has given it; weakness reflects the

darkness of its maker. It is sick and looks on sickness, which is

like itself. Truth is a savior and can only will for happiness and

peace for everyone. It gives its strength to everyone who asks, in

limitless supply. It sees that lack in anyone would be a lack in all.

And so it gives its light that all may see and benefit as one. Its

strength is shared, that it may bring to all the miracle in which

they will unite in purpose and forgiveness and in love.

 

Truth does not need a bolster of anger. It is free and gentle by

itself.

 

99.99% of the time we get angry because we have bloated ego a subtle

ego in our hearts that " oh, iam someone important " -805 of the time

without our consciousness so blindly stop your angry remarks,bevaior

because chances are you are right and ina rare case where should

have been angry and you stopped yourself-you still are right for

Anger is not the way and the light!

 

Each time you get angry your prana is weakened. Call prana by any

name " Chi " ,Qi,soul,anything...It weakens considerably.

 

It fears and it attacks and hates itself, and darkness covers

everything it sees, leaving its dreams as fearful as itself. No

miracles are here, but only hate. It separates itself from what it

sees, while light and strength perceive themselves as one.

 

The light of strength is not the light you see. It does not change

and flicker and go out. It does not shift from night to day, and back

to darkness till the morning comes again.The light of strength is

constant, sure as love, forever glad to give itself away, because it

cannot give but to itself. No one can ask in vain to share its sight,

and none who enters its abode can leave without a miracle before his

or her eyes, and strength and light abiding in his or her heart.

 

There is no peace except the peace of one's Surrrender to divinity,

 

And I am glad and thankful it is so.

 

From onto darkenss and into penumbra,

 

And from penumbra into light, May we move humility and gentleness.

 

For it is the truth and the way

 

And Iam glad and thankful it is so...

 

Yours yogically,

 

Shreeram Balijepalli

 

P.S. You asked for some mantras to control anger. I will reveal it in

my later postings but this is somehting which should start from your

inners and innards. You should not depend on the crutch of mantras to

remove your anger but your pranic will to remove it. When you get

angry, mantras wont help!