Guest guest Posted January 7, 2002 Report Share Posted January 7, 2002 Namaste Everyone, Firstly, Saravana Kumarji, that was really beautiful what you said about truth (regarding Sri Rama's quote), thank you! I hope that there are no hard feelings...I know that I have said some things rather directly and not considering the other persons'feelings. I have mostly been angry in the last little while-especially towards my religion ever since my Gurudeva passed away. I was over at a friends house two days ago and I was talking to this very intelligent young woman. She was very expressive with herself, leaving me feeling safe to share my thoughts and experiences with her. I told her that lately I was feeling upset and guilty for telling off a nice man over the net. She asked me what I saw in that person that bothered me about myself. I found myself " opening up " emotionally for the first time time since Gurudeva's mahasamadhi. I realized that what I projected on you was my belief about myself that I think that I know a lot about Sanatana Dharma. Because of this egoistic thought I saw jnana as a hindrance in my relationship with God Siva. And as I egoistically perceived this quality in you, I got angry because it reminded me so much of myself and I felt jealous that your jnana is apparently not a hindrance to your relationship to God! So, in short, I felt that God loved you more than me because you know more than me concerning spirituality. And I felt that Maa inadvertantly doesn't want me close to Her, hence She brought me a book with the wrong pronunciation to a mantra. I see that Maa Bhavani made me face my biggest fear... BEING WRONG! I thank you kind sir for being Maa's messanger in this lesson. Please accept my pranaam. Love brother Shyam. ____ Send your holiday cheer with http://greetings..ca Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2002 Report Share Posted January 7, 2002 My dear Shyam! May I call you so? Indeed, after reading your message I can't address you in any other manner? Oh, what a metamorphosis? She has done it again!!! A brat to a fuming volcano to a wise man - all in a matter of a few days! Who, other than Her, could have brought this about? Sri Saravana Kumarji was Her instrument. And, indeed, the mispronounced or misunderstood mantra worked afterall! I am happy that I and my ignorance of the mantra started all this. I remember you said something about your age being a little over 20. Nay, from your last message, you sounded the oldest and the wisest of us all. So, you don't have to be jealous any more. In fact, I am feeling jealous now. Congratulations, man! Take care. We are sure Mother will take care of your heart and the problems relating to your dear parents. So, don't lose heart. Pray. We all do pray with you. Tell Her that all your problems are at Her feet and command repeat command her to take care of them. You can afford to command, Shyam, for you have already earned Her grace. I am writing this with tears of joy welling in my eyes. Regards. Jai Jai Maa! Madathil Nair Shyam Wazir <bhairavi99ca Saktha Family a strange idea.... Sun, 6 Jan 2002 21:00:53 -0500 (EST) Namaste Everyone, Firstly, Saravana Kumarji, that was really beautiful what you said about truth (regarding Sri Rama's quote), thank you! I hope that there are no hard feelings...I know that I have said some things rather directly and not considering the other persons'feelings. I have mostly been angry in the last little while-especially towards my religion ever since my Gurudeva passed away. I was over at a friends house two days ago and I was talking to this very intelligent young woman. She was very expressive with herself, leaving me feeling safe to share my thoughts and experiences with her. I told her that lately I was feeling upset and guilty for telling off a nice man over the net. She asked me what I saw in that person that bothered me about myself. I found myself " opening up " emotionally for the first time time since Gurudeva's mahasamadhi. I realized that what I projected on you was my belief about myself that I think that I know a lot about Sanatana Dharma. Because of this egoistic thought I saw jnana as a hindrance in my relationship with God Siva. And as I egoistically perceived this quality in you, I got angry because it reminded me so much of myself and I felt jealous that your jnana is apparently not a hindrance to your relationship to God! So, in short, I felt that God loved you more than me because you know more than me concerning spirituality. And I felt that Maa inadvertantly doesn't want me close to Her, hence She brought me a book with the wrong pronunciation to a mantra. I see that Maa Bhavani made me face my biggest fear... BEING WRONG! I thank you kind sir for being Maa's messanger in this lesson. Please accept my pranaam. Love brother Shyam. ____ Send your holiday cheer with http://greetings..ca _______________ Join the world’s largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. http://www.hotmail.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 7, 2002 Report Share Posted January 7, 2002 Test message >"madathil nair" > > >Re: a strange idea.... >Mon, 07 Jan 2002 05:03:45 +0000 > >My dear Shyam! > >May I call you so? Indeed, after reading your message I can't address you >in any other manner? Oh, what a metamorphosis? She has done it again!!! A >brat to a fuming volcano to a wise man - all in a matter of a few days! >Who, other than Her, could have brought this about? Sri Saravana Kumarji >was Her instrument. And, indeed, the mispronounced or misunderstood mantra >worked afterall! I am happy that I and my ignorance of the mantra started >all this. I remember you said something about your age being a little over >20. Nay, from your last message, you sounded the oldest and the wisest of >us all. So, you don't have to be jealous any more. In fact, I am feeling >jealous now. Congratulations, man! Take care. We are sure Mother will >take care of your heart and the problems relating to your dear parents. So, >don't lose heart. Pray. We all do pray with you. Tell Her that all your >problems are at Her feet and command repeat command her to take care of >them. You can afford to command, Shyam, for you have already earned Her >grace. I am writing this with tears of joy welling in my eyes. > >Regards. > >Jai Jai Maa! > >Madathil Nair > >Shyam Wazir > >Saktha Family > a strange idea.... >Sun, 6 Jan 2002 21:00:53 -0500 (EST) > >Namaste Everyone, > >Firstly, Saravana Kumarji, that was really beautiful >what you said about truth (regarding Sri Rama's >quote), thank you! >I hope that there are no hard feelings...I know that I >have said some things rather directly and not >considering the other persons'feelings. I have mostly >been angry in the last little while-especially towards >my religion ever since my Gurudeva passed away. > >I was over at a friends house two days ago and I was >talking to this very intelligent young woman. She was >very expressive with herself, leaving me feeling safe >to share my thoughts and experiences with her. I told >her that lately I was feeling upset and guilty for >telling off a nice man over the net. She asked me what >I saw in that person that bothered me about myself. I >found myself "opening up" emotionally for the first >time time since Gurudeva's mahasamadhi. >I realized that what I projected on you was my belief >about myself that I think that I know a lot about >Sanatana Dharma. Because of this egoistic thought I >saw jnana as a hindrance in my relationship with God >Siva. And as I egoistically perceived this quality in >you, I got angry because it reminded me so much of >myself and I felt jealous that your jnana is >apparently not a hindrance to your relationship to >God! So, in short, I felt that God loved you more than >me because you know more than me concerning >spirituality. And I felt that Maa inadvertantly >doesn't want me close to Her, hence She brought me a >book with the wrong pronunciation to a mantra. I see >that Maa Bhavani made me face my biggest fear... >BEING WRONG! > >I thank you kind sir for being Maa's messanger in this >lesson. Please accept my pranaam. > >Love brother Shyam. > >____ >Send your holiday cheer with http://greetings..ca > > >_______________ >Join the world’s largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. >http://www.hotmail.com > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 8, 2002 Report Share Posted January 8, 2002 Dear guys, I'm too tired to delete your messages. I really don't know what the test you're trying to do. But please quit my name from your address book. Thank you for your help angie. > " S Sangaranarayanan " <sangarsai > > >Re: a strange idea.... >Mon, 07 Jan 2002 05:28:34 > _______________ Join the world’s largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. http://www.hotmail.com Test message >"madathil nair" > > >Re: a strange idea.... >Mon, 07 Jan 2002 05:03:45 +0000 > >My dear Shyam! > >May I call you so? Indeed, after reading your message I can't address you >in any other manner? Oh, what a metamorphosis? She has done it again!!! A >brat to a fuming volcano to a wise man - all in a matter of a few days! >Who, other than Her, could have brought this about? Sri Saravana Kumarji >was Her instrument. And, indeed, the mispronounced or misunderstood mantra >worked afterall! I am happy that I and my ignorance of the mantra started >all this. I remember you said something about your age being a little over >20. Nay, from your last message, you sounded the oldest and the wisest of >us all. So, you don't have to be jealous any more. In fact, I am feeling >jealous now. Congratulations, man! Take care. We are sure Mother will >take care of your heart and the problems relating to your dear parents. So, >don't lose heart. Pray. We all do pray with you. Tell Her that all your >problems are at Her feet and command repeat command her to take care of >them. You can afford to command, Shyam, for you have already earned Her >grace. I am writing this with tears of joy welling in my eyes. > >Regards. > >Jai Jai Maa! > >Madathil Nair > >Shyam Wazir > >Saktha Family > a strange idea.... >Sun, 6 Jan 2002 21:00:53 -0500 (EST) > >Namaste Everyone, > >Firstly, Saravana Kumarji, that was really beautiful >what you said about truth (regarding Sri Rama's >quote), thank you! >I hope that there are no hard feelings...I know that I >have said some things rather directly and not >considering the other persons'feelings. I have mostly >been angry in the last little while-especially towards >my religion ever since my Gurudeva passed away. > >I was over at a friends house two days ago and I was >talking to this very intelligent young woman. She was >very expressive with herself, leaving me feeling safe >to share my thoughts and experiences with her. I told >her that lately I was feeling upset and guilty for >telling off a nice man over the net. She asked me what >I saw in that person that bothered me about myself. I >found myself "opening up" emotionally for the first >time time since Gurudeva's mahasamadhi. >I realized that what I projected on you was my belief >about myself that I think that I know a lot about >Sanatana Dharma. Because of this egoistic thought I >saw jnana as a hindrance in my relationship with God >Siva. And as I egoistically perceived this quality in >you, I got angry because it reminded me so much of >myself and I felt jealous that your jnana is >apparently not a hindrance to your relationship to >God! So, in short, I felt that God loved you more than >me because you know more than me concerning >spirituality. And I felt that Maa inadvertantly >doesn't want me close to Her, hence She brought me a >book with the wrong pronunciation to a mantra. I see >that Maa Bhavani made me face my biggest fear... >BEING WRONG! > >I thank you kind sir for being Maa's messanger in this >lesson. Please accept my pranaam. > >Love brother Shyam. > >____ >Send your holiday cheer with http://greetings..ca > > >_______________ >Join the world’s largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. >http://www.hotmail.com > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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