Re-Introduction to the Group

[Guest guest]

Namaste,

 

About two or three years ago, I came to this group in hopes to seek guidance

under the alias of Anya/seclusive_nihilism. My family is Roman Catholic with a

several Buddhists in my Asian side of the family. I just..well, did not fit

right with Christianity, tradition wise...something about it was not right for

me, and I wanted to seek something more.

 

When I decided to explore other faiths, I began to draw various images and

inspirations. One of them was of a card of a female multi-armed warrior with

one set of arms that killed a demon, another set of arms nurturing a baby. I

decided, after looking over the picture again and again, to look more into

Hinduism. Shortly after my interest in Hinduism, I began to have dreams of

Kali...and sought to understand her more, as well as the Sanatana Dharma. I

still wish to learn more about both.

 

For a long period of time, I got wrapped up into my university work and could

not get myself to posting here or reading here. And then I began to struggle

with clinical depression, and my grades began to fall apart.

 

Right now, I am redeeming myself and am currently on medication. My interests

in Shaktism has not changed, though I have yet to have a human guru (I know I

must wait till my time on this one, for the time prayer and faith are my tools)

to guide me through the more cultural and ritualistic knowledge. Otherwise, I

felt that I should have sought out the Shakti Sadhana online group again, as a

start to pick up myself and try to get back into filling even more of my

spiritual side, if that makes any sense.

 

Not much else has changed since my disappearance other than that I am a year and

a half short of getting my undergraduate degree in a university, and hopefully,

can use that degree and the experience of this undergraduate time to get into

graduate school to train and become a clinical psychologist. Through that, I

can (hopefully) help others, thus help myself. I feel, this is in a way

fulfilling my duty to God/dess. I also lately have gone lacto-ovo vegetarian,

for I just suddenly desired to see if I could go on without consuming a product

of a dead animal (though I myself do not have anything against non-vegetarians

at all, I just felt that maybe I should see if I spiritually evolved through

this harsh time; I always learned that through harsh times, an evolution of the

person tends to follow).

 

I think I went on for quite a while... I know I still have -much- to learn, and

I hope that I may be accepted again in this loving group. I really missed

everyone.

 

 

Jai Ma!

 

Sincerely,

Christina H.