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Hey, Jagbir

 

Jai Shri Mataji,

 

I had already applied in detail to this person's

email. It must be on the forum where all messages are

there. Just check it out.

 

I had given a detailed report, question by question.

 

The Sahajayogis are back from Ganapatiphule. Am

waiting to meet them in order to get feedback.

 

Trust all is well.

 

Regards,

 

Rajan

 

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--- jagbir singh <adishakti_org wrote:

> shriadishakti , " jagbir singh "

> <adishakti_org> wrote:

> > Dear Believers of the Resurrection and Last

> Judgment,

> >

> > i have received a lengthy 'difficult' email from a

> SY and have sat

> > on it for days. It will be answered in bits and

> pieces but the

> > identity of the sender kept strictly confidential.

> >

> > i want to again remind that all inquiries, unless

> circumstances

> > demand, will always be posted on this public

> forum. (identity will

> > always be protected.) It will serve little if

> readers require a

> > private answer to common, collective problems.

> Moreover, others

> > can contribute wherever necessary to heal those

> less fortunate.

> >

> > We SYs must strive to be as transparent as

> possible and apply the

> > sobering balm of self-criticism for personal

> growth. Sweeping

> > past/present problems afflicting SYs or Sahaja

> Yoga under the

> > carpet of the local collective, and pretending

> everything is all

> > right is anathema to my adherence to Truth.

> Nothing must retard

> > the evolution of the Maha Yoga of the great Adi

> Shakti Shri Mataji

> > Nirmala Devi. Only by exposing the negativity and

> putting

> > thoughtless collective attention on it will we

> begin to comprehend

> > the powers we possess to eradicate it. But don't

> get me wrong. i

> > am talking of the " thoughtless state " which few

> SYs really possess.

> >

> > So, this is part of the email i am talking about.

> The rest will

> > follow in bits and pieces. Please respond.

> >

> > jagbir

> >

> > ----------------------------

> >

>

>

> This is just some info…

>

> Way back in 95' i think i had an attack by what i

> think could be a

> bhoot. (some far relative of mine – some aunty

> stayed at our home

> and later on we found she used to visit some tantric

> guru all the

> time)..my left heart was hurting so much i couldnt

> breathe/laugh

> properly, i couldnt even move my left arm upwards

> without

> hurting..... that time i didnt know anything about

> SY or even evil

> negativity neither did I belive it much, so i kept

> visiting doctors

> till i got tired of medications and just gave

> up..then it subsided

> only to retun now & then.

>

> Also in May 2002 my Grandmother (Dadi) died - and

> the morning she

> passed away I was sleeping at about 5.30 am when it

> felt like

> someone just grabbed both my arms and pulled me up…I

> woke up- saw

> nobody..and went back to sleep and it happened

> again, and I woke-up

> and again went back to sleep …when it happened for

> 3rd time I got

> really scared and stayed awake. She had cut off

> ties with my dad &

> mom and hence we were not on speaking terms for the

> last few years

> of her life.

>

> After that it was hell…I could hardly sleep even for

> one night

> because everytime I fell asleep I would be woken

> up…sometimes

> someone shaking my leg or arm…sometimes someone

> pulling off my

> blanket so I'd wake up freezing cold. i kept praying

> to god for

> all this to stop but it continued.

>

> Finally in desperation in July 2002, I visited a

> " spiritualist " (a

> lady in india) and she said that since 7 years i was

> under some

> bhoot etc etc and did some rituals and said that now

> it was driven

> out of me blah blah blah...and since i was so fed up

> of the whole

> thing i was happy.

>

> Only to keep going back to her & say something is

> still wrong – I

> still get disturbed by someone at night...she just

> gave me some

> black thread for that ( which I threw away after

> joining SY).

>

> After I joined SY in Oct 2002, all this stopped.

> Iam eternally

> gratefull to Shri Mataji for that.

>

> Well so much for some info…

>

> Right now, honestly I don't know if iam still having

> anything

> evil/negative/bhoot in me..as I guess these things

> can happen

> again……reason I suspect is that..:-

>

> 1- sometimes even sitting alone my agnya charka

> " spins " for a

> few seconds and stops. Of course sometimes its

> other charkas

> spinning..like swdishtan or nabhi or heart. Mostly

> i still have

> this terrible pain in my left heart that comes &

> goes.

>

> 2- Sometimes when iam out with family/friends like

> at a café, or

> sitting in car, sometimes my agnya charka spins for

> a few seconds

> and stops…why is this?

>

> 3- This is more substantial…and I hope you wont get

> offended

> because that's not my intention. Maybe after so

> many years of

> getting frustrated not only by family but by all

> these bhootish

> things which made me cry all night because I

> couldn't even sleep

> no matter how tired I was…I was being woken up…

>

> I started to get angry at god…I don't know if this

> anger is

> from me or something evil in me…like when I pray to

> God a voice

> in my ead goes " what has god done for u…u pray all

> time and

> still all these (unjust) things happen to u…if

> that's how it

> going to be then what's the point of praying to God?

>

> Why didn't God protect me when I was suffering was

> only a small

> child…how could God just sit there quietly and let

> it happen…

> how could God let some tantric lady put bhoot in me.

> God knows

> everything…I was innocent then why didn't he protect

> me? Why

> did he just watch me suffer for 7 yrs? Why did he

> let my health go

> so bad? He wants complete dedication but how can I

> do so when I

> hurting physically, emotionally and mentally? Even

> after coming to

> SY for one year why hasn't my health got cured? If

> there are

> miracles why doesn't this happen to me? "

>

> IF GOD REALLY WANTS ME TO BECOME A GOOD SY THEN WHY

> DID HE LET ME BE

> BORN IN THAT " ATHESIT " NAKSHATRA?? HOW CAN I FIGHT

> OFF THESE

> PLANETS??

>

> Even doing meditation is like a hurdle …like when I

> close my

> eyes…I pray to Mataji…pls. give me bhakti &

> shakti…help

> me become a better sahaj yogi…help me control my

> thoughts,

> forgive me for all the wrong things I say/do/think

> and suddenly in

> my head a voice goes off…. " whats all this? Who is

> shri

> mataji…is she genuine…etc etc..and I struggle with

> that

> voice…I say YES SHE IS GOD, SHE IS THE MOST

> IMPORTANT THING IN MY

>

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