WHat Keeps the seeker seeking/yearning???

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Hello all,

 

Thanks for your many messages in response to my questions; much

appreciated.

 

I do have a question that I hope can be answered.

 

A little background:

 

I had my realization over a year ago and never went back or practiced

Sahaja yoga since, yet the drive to join or follow the spiritual path

has gotten ever stronger inside of me. Before I found sahaja yoga,

just the typical site, I had tried to find peace and healing and

myself with other esoteric/occult ¡§healing methods " , all of which

didn't work. Basically I began seeking a while ago and went for my

realization at the end of that, a year n some ago. For some reason I

didn't continue and found all sorts of excuses why I should put it

off. A few months later I found this website and forum and immersed

myself in it fully, which I have yet to stop doing. In that time the

urge to take part in the resurrection via sahaja yoga and basically

reorient my life, everything from career choice to the way I carry

myself has increased 100 fold, to the point where every waking

thought, even while working, is filled with the answers and

information from this site, and the desire to go ahead, get my

realization again and begin my journey.

 

The funny thing is, that the longer I continue to put this off, the

stronger the urge becomes. I seem to put it off for reason which are

silly like: waiting until I move out so my surroundings are perfect,

waiting until I¡¦m finished musically projects (hip-hop/rap) which I

know would be not inline with the spirit content wise (weather my

lyrical content or the others in my group) or the surroundings we'd

play at, to finish my tattoo project. As you can see these are

basically things that shouldn¡¦t hinder my ability to get up and go

to a collective meeting and get started, but for some reason they do.

 

Not only that, but the whole music thing for a career, at least in

that genre (as I have been doing it for 7 years) seems to no longer

interest me and is causing me to be torn in two different directions

in terms of where I want to take my life right now. I could hold off

until the album is done in the summer, but then touring to get sales

of the album would continue for months more, effectively keeping me

from practicing the life I want now and sahaja with the consistency I

want. The life i have lived and am living currently is not even what

i want to live and know i should not be living, yet somehow i still

am and do. I would just leave it but then I have 2 other people in my

group that depend on me and are not at all in the same headspace I am

in with all this, not to mention I don't know what I would do career

wise without it, even though I know its not what I want.

 

***Basically, my questions are**: what is it that causes the seeker

to SEEK in the FIRST place? What drives that person to suddenly want

to find something more or the truth, while every one around him, and

seeming most others, aren't even worried about that or have had any

inexplicable drive to search for something more/lead a humble, spirit

oriented life?

 

Also, what is it that causes the seekers desire to find the truth

and change ones life to be inline with that truth to increase,

especially after the path has been found?? **********

 

Any help with this would be greatly appreciated

 

Kyyan

 

ps: **for that matter, how come in my heart I know that Shri Mataji

is the Adi shakti and that through the shakti and sahaja yoga all

pains will be healed, and all my sorrows, questions etc will be

answered without needing any proof? It¡¦s almost an instinct, as if I

just know, though when other ask I cannot find the words to explain

or even understand why I know; I just do

[Guest guest]

Dear Danny,

 

That was an excellent reply indeed. Your positive energy is much

larger and powerful, and will earn more kudos in future. Reflect and

then deflect the need to react negatively. Let that positive side of

yours always prevail and you will do well.

 

jagbir

[Guest guest]

Probably an analogy from the movie The Matrix will help. When Neo

meets Morpheus for the first time, Morpheus asks him Why is he here

and then says that he is here because he knows something, something

he cant explain but its like a burning splinter in his mind.

 

I guess its the same with seekers. Throughout our history we have

been trying to make sense of our lives and find purpose in it and of

it. This has lead to various philosophies like zen, existentialism,

atheism, agnosticism etc . While primarily the purpose of oriental

philosophy is to look at ourselves as a part of the some bigger

consciousness, in occidental philosophy (particulary in the last

century) there has been a very dominant school of thought that there

is no higher meaning to our lives and hence there is no meaning in

seeking that.

 

When I was experimenting with these philosophies in my college years,

I found out that none of them really gave me satisfaction and answer

to my questions. It seemed clear to me that answer cannot lie in our

intellectual ability to think rationally. Because logic is by nature

dual (like right/wrong or hot/cold) but real life isnt dual (for

example cold isnt opposite of hot but merely absence of it).

 

One of the greatest physicts of our time Roger Penrose in his

book " the shadows of the mind " comprehensively proves that human

consciousness cannot be reduces to any combination computational

procedures and says that insight into human consciousness can be

found out in " some large scale quantum coherence processes within

certain sections of our brains "

 

Does all this sound familiar? What is raising of kundalini but large

scale quantum coherence in which " all " of our chakras are united? So

perhaps science has now come at a stage where it is now open to idea

of kundalini and chakras.

 

So the point I am trying to make is everything cannot be explained

rationally and/or by logic. We need to listen to ourselves (what can

be called as instinct) and it is this internal voice that tells us

and guides us.

 

Jai Shri Mataji

 

anuj

 

 

 

shriadishakti , " v_koa " <v_koa> wrote:

>

> Hello all,

>

> Thanks for your many messages in response to my questions; much

> appreciated.

>

> I do have a question that I hope can be answered.

>

> A little background:

>

> I had my realization over a year ago and never went back or

practiced

> Sahaja yoga since, yet the drive to join or follow the spiritual

path

> has gotten ever stronger inside of me. Before I found sahaja yoga,

> just the typical site, I had tried to find peace and healing and

> myself with other esoteric/occult ¡§healing methods " , all of which

> didn't work. Basically I began seeking a while ago and went for my

> realization at the end of that, a year n some ago. For some reason

I

> didn't continue and found all sorts of excuses why I should put it

> off. A few months later I found this website and forum and immersed

> myself in it fully, which I have yet to stop doing. In that time

the

> urge to take part in the resurrection via sahaja yoga and basically

> reorient my life, everything from career choice to the way I carry

> myself has increased 100 fold, to the point where every waking

> thought, even while working, is filled with the answers and

> information from this site, and the desire to go ahead, get my

> realization again and begin my journey.

>

> The funny thing is, that the longer I continue to put this off, the

> stronger the urge becomes. I seem to put it off for reason which

are

> silly like: waiting until I move out so my surroundings are

perfect,

> waiting until I¡¦m finished musically projects (hip-hop/rap) which

I

> know would be not inline with the spirit content wise (weather my

> lyrical content or the others in my group) or the surroundings we'd

> play at, to finish my tattoo project. As you can see these are

> basically things that shouldn¡¦t hinder my ability to get up and go

> to a collective meeting and get started, but for some reason they

do.

>

> Not only that, but the whole music thing for a career, at least in

> that genre (as I have been doing it for 7 years) seems to no longer

> interest me and is causing me to be torn in two different

directions

> in terms of where I want to take my life right now. I could hold

off

> until the album is done in the summer, but then touring to get

sales

> of the album would continue for months more, effectively keeping me

> from practicing the life I want now and sahaja with the consistency

I

> want. The life i have lived and am living currently is not even

what

> i want to live and know i should not be living, yet somehow i still

> am and do. I would just leave it but then I have 2 other people in

my

> group that depend on me and are not at all in the same headspace I

am

> in with all this, not to mention I don't know what I would do

career

> wise without it, even though I know its not what I want.

>

> ***Basically, my questions are**: what is it that causes the seeker

> to SEEK in the FIRST place? What drives that person to suddenly

want

> to find something more or the truth, while every one around him,

and

> seeming most others, aren't even worried about that or have had any

> inexplicable drive to search for something more/lead a humble,

spirit

> oriented life?

>

> Also, what is it that causes the seekers desire to find the truth

> and change ones life to be inline with that truth to increase,

> especially after the path has been found?? **********

>

> Any help with this would be greatly appreciated

>

> Kyyan

>

> ps: **for that matter, how come in my heart I know that Shri Mataji

> is the Adi shakti and that through the shakti and sahaja yoga all

> pains will be healed, and all my sorrows, questions etc will be

> answered without needing any proof? It¡¦s almost an instinct, as if

I

> just know, though when other ask I cannot find the words to explain

> or even understand why I know; I just do