THe Pull To Know GOD IS OVERWHELMING me

[Guest guest]

Just to add to my thoughts in the previous e-mail, I have to say

that in the past couple of months that the pull to get realized and

live `SAHAJ' and devote myself 100% to SY has been overwhelming. I

mean

I don't know what it was like for other seekers, as I am sure once

they found this site or SY they went right away into it, but its

been a pull towards something that I have never known before. Its

uncontrollable and unrelenting. Its all consuming, especially in the

last almost 4 months since I gave up all drinking, smoking, drugs,

everything, and am thinking clearly and not being distracted. I have

a lot of things going on in my life, like having to look for school

to get a job, working on a music project in a genre that isn't known

for its positivity or its lack of ego, out of obligation to 2 other

friends/group members, not because I actually want to ( as I know it

conflicts in its essence with Sy and the lifestyle and mind set I

have now and want to have through SY), yet regardless of all of

this that urge to get realized and know god finds its way into my

thoughts and then takes over. Even with the music thing, I fight to

get any creativity out or even have any desire in it. It used to be

all I wanted to do and would work effortless and for hours, even

days on lyrics and writing

to that end, but nowadays even 10 minutes dedicated to writing or

anything for that cause is impossible, as the drive and interest has

drained from it completely and any shreds that get conjured up last

less then a few hors at most; plus it always comes back to SY.

 

Any stress I have or worries I have about not knowing how I am going

to

live without a job right now or find what I want to do in life etc,

is taken over by the

thought " all my problems, worries and questions will be answered and

I will be guided once I get realized and begin to know God " . There

isn't a day that goes by or an hour that goes by in which I am not

reading this forum or re-reading the Adi Shakti site, or am out and

about far removed from the computer and anything spiritual, going

over all I have read in my head and thinking/desiring to know

myself,

know god, and live the life I know deep down inside I want. Its not

like a gross want similar ones I used to have where I really wanted

something and would think of it over and over for weeks, and then it

would eventually go away. Its been weeks and months and it hasn't

stopped, it

has grown stronger beyond anything I have known in its likeness.

Its not like a gross desire, its like deeper; from where it comes I

know not( any idea where that urge comes from???) but its wells up

from deep inside me and is more then an urge, its like a literal

pull of my mind, my thoughts and everything. It even takes my

thoughts about other things and pulls them in its direction.

 

I have made the decision to go ahead and finally get my realization,

but I just wanted to share these thoughts will everyone, as you all

have been quite nice and supportive with me. What causes such a pull

anyways?

Thanks for listening and any comments in regards to this from any

and all would definitely be welcomed, not to mention very

anticipated/entertaining.

 

Thanks everyone

 

(excuse the spelling, I didn't proof read)

 

Kyyan

[Guest guest]

Dear Kyyan,

 

I am so happy for you. You are experiencing the " Pure Desire " :

within you. This power of " Pure Desire " is very strong. It is

the " pure desire " of your Spirit within you, Kyyan. Your own Spirit

is wanting you to become more than you can ever dream of!

Go for it!

 

Love from Violet

 

 

 

 

 

- In , " v_koa " <v_koa>

wrote:

>

> Just to add to my thoughts in the previous e-mail, I have to say

> that in the past couple of months that the pull to get realized and

> live `SAHAJ' and devote myself 100% to SY has been overwhelming. I

> mean

> I don't know what it was like for other seekers, as I am sure once

> they found this site or SY they went right away into it, but its

> been a pull towards something that I have never known before. Its

> uncontrollable and unrelenting. Its all consuming, especially in

the

> last almost 4 months since I gave up all drinking, smoking, drugs,

> everything, and am thinking clearly and not being distracted. I

have

> a lot of things going on in my life, like having to look for school

> to get a job, working on a music project in a genre that isn't

known

> for its positivity or its lack of ego, out of obligation to 2 other

> friends/group members, not because I actually want to ( as I know

it

> conflicts in its essence with Sy and the lifestyle and mind set I

> have now and want to have through SY), yet regardless of all of

> this that urge to get realized and know god finds its way into my

> thoughts and then takes over. Even with the music thing, I fight to

> get any creativity out or even have any desire in it. It used to be

> all I wanted to do and would work effortless and for hours, even

> days on lyrics and writing

> to that end, but nowadays even 10 minutes dedicated to writing or

> anything for that cause is impossible, as the drive and interest

has

> drained from it completely and any shreds that get conjured up last

> less then a few hors at most; plus it always comes back to SY.

>

> Any stress I have or worries I have about not knowing how I am

going

> to

> live without a job right now or find what I want to do in life

etc,

> is taken over by the

> thought " all my problems, worries and questions will be answered

and

> I will be guided once I get realized and begin to know God " . There

> isn't a day that goes by or an hour that goes by in which I am not

> reading this forum or re-reading the Adi Shakti site, or am out and

> about far removed from the computer and anything spiritual, going

> over all I have read in my head and thinking/desiring to know

> myself,

> know god, and live the life I know deep down inside I want. Its not

> like a gross want similar ones I used to have where I really

wanted

> something and would think of it over and over for weeks, and then

it

> would eventually go away. Its been weeks and months and it hasn't

> stopped, it

> has grown stronger beyond anything I have known in its likeness.

> Its not like a gross desire, its like deeper; from where it comes I

> know not( any idea where that urge comes from???) but its wells up

> from deep inside me and is more then an urge, its like a literal

> pull of my mind, my thoughts and everything. It even takes my

> thoughts about other things and pulls them in its direction.

>

> I have made the decision to go ahead and finally get my

realization,

> but I just wanted to share these thoughts will everyone, as you all

> have been quite nice and supportive with me. What causes such a

pull

> anyways?

> Thanks for listening and any comments in regards to this from any

> and all would definitely be welcomed, not to mention very

> anticipated/entertaining.

>

> Thanks everyone

>

> (excuse the spelling, I didn't proof read)

>

> Kyyan

[Guest guest]

Dear Kyyan,

 

I am very happy for you.

 

It is the Pure Desire of your own Spirit that is leading you to

achieve your fulfillment and these are very special times indeed!

 

Love from Violet

 

, " v_koa " <v_koa>

wrote:

>

> Just to add to my thoughts in the previous e-mail, I have to say

> that in the past couple of months that the pull to get realized and

> live `SAHAJ' and devote myself 100% to SY has been overwhelming. I

> mean

> I don't know what it was like for other seekers, as I am sure once

> they found this site or SY they went right away into it, but its

> been a pull towards something that I have never known before. Its

> uncontrollable and unrelenting. Its all consuming, especially in

the

> last almost 4 months since I gave up all drinking, smoking, drugs,

> everything, and am thinking clearly and not being distracted. I

have

> a lot of things going on in my life, like having to look for school

> to get a job, working on a music project in a genre that isn't

known

> for its positivity or its lack of ego, out of obligation to 2 other

> friends/group members, not because I actually want to ( as I know

it

> conflicts in its essence with Sy and the lifestyle and mind set I

> have now and want to have through SY), yet regardless of all of

> this that urge to get realized and know god finds its way into my

> thoughts and then takes over. Even with the music thing, I fight to

> get any creativity out or even have any desire in it. It used to be

> all I wanted to do and would work effortless and for hours, even

> days on lyrics and writing

> to that end, but nowadays even 10 minutes dedicated to writing or

> anything for that cause is impossible, as the drive and interest

has

> drained from it completely and any shreds that get conjured up last

> less then a few hors at most; plus it always comes back to SY.

>

> Any stress I have or worries I have about not knowing how I am

going

> to

> live without a job right now or find what I want to do in life

etc,

> is taken over by the

> thought " all my problems, worries and questions will be answered

and

> I will be guided once I get realized and begin to know God " . There

> isn't a day that goes by or an hour that goes by in which I am not

> reading this forum or re-reading the Adi Shakti site, or am out and

> about far removed from the computer and anything spiritual, going

> over all I have read in my head and thinking/desiring to know

> myself,

> know god, and live the life I know deep down inside I want. Its not

> like a gross want similar ones I used to have where I really

wanted

> something and would think of it over and over for weeks, and then

it

> would eventually go away. Its been weeks and months and it hasn't

> stopped, it

> has grown stronger beyond anything I have known in its likeness.

> Its not like a gross desire, its like deeper; from where it comes I

> know not( any idea where that urge comes from???) but its wells up

> from deep inside me and is more then an urge, its like a literal

> pull of my mind, my thoughts and everything. It even takes my

> thoughts about other things and pulls them in its direction.

>

> I have made the decision to go ahead and finally get my

realization,

> but I just wanted to share these thoughts will everyone, as you all

> have been quite nice and supportive with me. What causes such a

pull

> anyways?

> Thanks for listening and any comments in regards to this from any

> and all would definitely be welcomed, not to mention very

> anticipated/entertaining.

>

> Thanks everyone

>

> (excuse the spelling, I didn't proof read)

>

> Kyyan

[Guest guest]

Danny,

 

It is interesting that you say that.

 

Before i answer, can i ask you WHAT PROCESS has started already?

 

WHat do u mean by the process has already started?

 

How do you know that the process has started in me already?

 

 

I got my first and only realization over a year ago at a meeting in

my city, but never went back and did not practice at all. I assumed

that I should get my realization a second time when i am more

serious about practicing SY 100%, which is what i meant by " i am

going to go and get my realization finally " .

 

I am going to do justthat because i feel i should go and ge it

again, besides i have many problems that i eed the other SY to help

me heal through.

 

I have saved the link you sent me and i am reading it over right

now. Thank you

 

I await your reply.

 

Kyyan

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> Dear Kyyan

> Are you sure you haven't had your realization initiated before?In

this

> case,it must've occurred over the internet,because the process has

> already started.Please visit this page

>

http://www.adishakti.org/miscellaneous/resurrection_and_last_judgment

..htm

> and save it on your computer(as web page,complete). It's one of my

> favorite from the

> adishakti.org...

> danny