some thoughts

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone jsm

just want to share some of my thoughts. recently in our collective

there r some things going on. for a while our weekly meditation class

was getting quite routine with not much interaction n engagement with

newcomers. so as usual people started to leave. this prompted some

members to be more initiative to suggest some changes. however this

was done behind the scenes n some emails to a private group(mainly

yuvashaktis n some key ppl) were exchanged without including the

centre leader. well our collective is quite small so i was part of

this group naturally. some spontaneous suggestions were given by the

people in this group but somehow it triggered to become a hoohah.

apparently someone had described the class as 'boring' n this word

plus some other comments caused a huge reaction in one of the key

people. n he blasted everyone with a long email with irrelevant

details n also made it wrong the fact that the centre leader was not

included in the discussions. well the person was someone i thought was

a very deep yogi, so was really surprised by his sudden outburst.

seems like everyone is not what they appear to be. this is the first

time i'm seeing sth like this happen in our collective. such strong

reactions to petty things. n what happened next was last nite we had a

collective gathering to have an informal discussion in person rather

than thru email. everything was going well and little was discussed

abt the incident. at the end of the session i was the one who actually

brought it up with someone, coz i'm the type who likes to know y

things happen so i was just being curious as usual. our conversation

was overheard by others n the discussion started to spread. in the end

many others were telling me that i shouldn't have brought the matter

up in the first place. but my thinking was some things should be

clarified n we shud understand how other ppl think in certain

situations. but their thinking was we shouldnt talk about it because

it will lead to division between the collective, destroying the

oneness, by argumentations n exerting of ego. ya i agree that i don't

quite have the awareness yet of what to say or do in collectivity but

still i feel there is something wrong. like they r trying to ignore

some aspects n keep quiet just to maintain the unity of the

collectivity. just feel that everything is like so fragile. saying

anything wrong or doing anything wrong will lead to undesirable

consequences. like having to be on tip toes all the time. n open

communication seems like criticism. usually i depend on my intuition ,

so many a times i don't really buy 100% what people tell me becoz i

feel sth is wrong or missing. now i really feel most yogis will just

follow what someone else tells them, especially those from the top.

they r afraid of not following protocol. what's with this protocol

anyway? did shri mataji lay it down? recently i had joined Orkut n saw

many communities spreading msg to not visit the adishakti.org site

saying stuff like having bad vibrations. i wonder if ppl actually

check it for themselves,i doubt it, but even if they did they wud

still follow the advice istead of trusting themselves. quite sad. Im

assuming no one from my collective comes here. what will they think of

this?

[Guest guest]

Dear Rodonsky,

 

Before i reply to your interesting email, could you please give your name. It is

nice to at least have a first name to reply to.

 

Thanks,

 

violet

 

 

 

 

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" rondosky " <rondosky wrote:

>

> Hi everyone jsm

> just want to share some of my thoughts. recently in our collective

> there r some things going on. for a while our weekly meditation

class

> was getting quite routine with not much interaction n engagement

with

> newcomers. so as usual people started to leave. this prompted some

> members to be more initiative to suggest some changes. however this

> was done behind the scenes n some emails to a private group(mainly

> yuvashaktis n some key ppl) were exchanged without including the

> centre leader. well our collective is quite small so i was part of

> this group naturally. some spontaneous suggestions were given by the

> people in this group but somehow it triggered to become a hoohah.

> apparently someone had described the class as 'boring' n this word

> plus some other comments caused a huge reaction in one of the key

> people. n he blasted everyone with a long email with irrelevant

> details n also made it wrong the fact that the centre leader was not

> included in the discussions. well the person was someone i thought

was

> a very deep yogi, so was really surprised by his sudden outburst.

> seems like everyone is not what they appear to be. this is the first

> time i'm seeing sth like this happen in our collective. such strong

> reactions to petty things. n what happened next was last nite we

had a

> collective gathering to have an informal discussion in person rather

> than thru email. everything was going well and little was discussed

> abt the incident. at the end of the session i was the one who

actually

> brought it up with someone, coz i'm the type who likes to know y

> things happen so i was just being curious as usual. our conversation

> was overheard by others n the discussion started to spread. in the

end

> many others were telling me that i shouldn't have brought the

matter

> up in the first place. but my thinking was some things should be

> clarified n we shud understand how other ppl think in certain

> situations. but their thinking was we shouldnt talk about it because

> it will lead to division between the collective, destroying the

> oneness, by argumentations n exerting of ego. ya i agree that i

don't

> quite have the awareness yet of what to say or do in collectivity

but

> still i feel there is something wrong. like they r trying to ignore

> some aspects n keep quiet just to maintain the unity of the

> collectivity. just feel that everything is like so fragile. saying

> anything wrong or doing anything wrong will lead to undesirable

> consequences. like having to be on tip toes all the time. n open

> communication seems like criticism. usually i depend on my

intuition ,

> so many a times i don't really buy 100% what people tell me becoz i

> feel sth is wrong or missing. now i really feel most yogis will just

> follow what someone else tells them, especially those from the top.

> they r afraid of not following protocol. what's with this protocol

> anyway? did shri mataji lay it down? recently i had joined Orkut n

saw

> many communities spreading msg to not visit the adishakti.org site

> saying stuff like having bad vibrations. i wonder if ppl actually

> check it for themselves,i doubt it, but even if they did they wud

> still follow the advice istead of trusting themselves. quite sad. Im

> assuming no one from my collective comes here. what will they think

of

> this?

>