Jai Shri Mataji

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Dear sister ssahajimy husband isn't a SY either, and although I "dragged" him to see Shri Mataji, he never felt "attracted". I've met Shri Mataji in 1993.During my first years in SY,(in the Paris collective, France)  I was feeling  terrible, especially because most of the Sahaja Yogis were married toother Sahaja Yogis and there was a big pressure to get married in Sahaja Yoga.  A lot of SYs considered me an "outcast"  because my husband wasn't meditating.It really broke my heart and like you, I didn't know what to do, if I had to avoid going with non-Sahajis....One day, I was crying so much because of that, and feeling desperate, I prayed deeply to Mother to give me an answer :the following night, I  had the most beautiful dream : I arrived, trough a tunnel of light, in a beautiful garden, full of animals, birds, and children. The children were full of joy and light seemed to emanate from their bodies. I started "recognizing" some of the children : I recognized some of my friends, some of my family members (although in "real life" they were much older) And after a while, I saw my "husband" : I knew he was my husband (my heart knew), but in my dream, in the beautiful garden, he was a small baby ! Further on, in the garden, I saw a huge, magnificent lady. Her head touched the stars in  the cosmos, and when She walked, galaxies were swirling around her white dress.Next to Her, was Her "first born", Jesus Christ : He had  the appearance of a strong young man.I saw this scene from "far away", and I did not dare watching them because they were too beautiful and too full of light. But my heart swell in awe, love and joy, because I understood that all the children and babies in the garden were also children of the Goddess. An so was my husband ! But his soul was still very young, and maybe he'll have to live many more lives before he understands who he really is (a child of the Goddess).So now, I feel at ease with anybody. I even have friends who "follow" false gurus as we can call them; it's true, that physically, it can be a bit painful sometimes; but if I decidenot to focus on it, and if I remember my dream with the Goddes and the babies, I feel full of joy and love and just enjoy the company of my "fellow human being". And I just hope that one day he/she will realize, be blessed like we are,  and join us.Focus on the love and the joy you want to give to your husband, to your friends. When you open your heart, the  vibrations flow out of you.It works ! It's only the doubts and the fear that close your heart and prevent you from enjoying everybody.Think of Shri Mataji who had to bear being in the presence of those horrible demons (the "leaders") for so many years !She took so much on Her. We should take Her as a model. She never rejected anybody, and enjoyed whatever situation She was in. Of course, She is the incarnation of the Goddess; but still, what a life !  So much patience, so much love... Wecould try, at least, to be and acta little bit like Her.Hoping  my message  will help you.Much LoveIsabelle On Aug 4, 2008, at 4:02 PM, ssahaji wrote:Dear Jagbir and allthis is first time my posing here. i do have question...i hope i am going to get right answer.since last seven years i am in a sahajayoga....really enjoy my meditation. Originally i am indian...married to a indian guy. my husband is very loving guy, but he is not a sahajayogi...but he does meditation too. now my question is that....being a indian i have to go to lots relatives places....where they have puja through pandit...and other religious ceremony through different guru. My husband is also a follower of somebody. now whereever i go some places like that i feel heat in my body and i always have hadache. if i don't go than i am going to cutoff relation from everybody.so my question is how i can save my self from everything and enjoy everybody. i like to socialise and meet everybody....but this is the only way here in usa we are gathering toghter.now please don't tell me that don't go anywhere.i can't do that because of my husband.how can i help my self out of this.personally i do not believe in anyother guru. Mother is my guru...so where ever i go any places like that i always pay attention on mother's feet....but still i am getting affected.please help me out

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My dear brothers and sisters

thank you for replying me....i felt so much love.

let me be more specific about my problem.

as i said..My husband is a follower of somebody...and i also go with

him too...not because i like going there, but it makes him happy and

at the same time we can also sociliase with our friends.

i live in joint family...and i am only a sahajayogi in my family.

As our indian tradition we have to bow down to our elders to give

them respect...but i am not bowing down to anybody and for that my

family does have problem with me.

so my question is that i have to live in traditional indian

environment family...and i have to follow all religious ceremony and

cultural...

so how i can save my self????

i want to speread sahaj love...per as i said i have to follow what

they are doing...even i am doing that....but my heart always stays

in our Mother's feet.

sometimes we i go with my family...i have to here someother guru's

speech(even i don't want too) that time i have hadache.

so how can face all these situation i don't know...it's very

difficult for me right now.